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happy new year my loves!!! 

Merry Christmas to those of you who celebrate!!! I know it’s a tough day for some, it is for me too for various reasons. Just know I’m sending you all my love and I’m here if any of you ever wanna chat. Love you guys. Maybe I’ll finally finish a chapter, aye??? Easier said than done. But, my holiday will be very quiet. So perhaps I will have a couple surprises ready!! 

JOSH AND DEBBY HAVE A BABY!!!! MY GOSHHH!!! His post made me ugly sob I’m not gonna lie. The teen in me is giggling so hard and so happy 

New EOTN chapter out now!!! hoping to get Sunday Morning’s next chapter out tonight too, I just finished my last final of the semester and have the night off so I’m in celebratory mood!!! 

just worked 40 hours in the last two days… holidays are no joke!!! having a light work week this upcoming one though, it’s finals season. so, expect some writing perhaps. also, I cannot wait to put the Sunday Morning crew into Christmas retail scenarios. especially Jax and Diana. oh my goodness, I am so inspired lol. now, to gather the motivation!! hope you all are well <3

Hope you all have a lovely day/holiday, new chapters tonight, because writing is the way I’m finding peace right now. 
          
          Now, I have a more personal message—don’t read if you will be uncomfortable:
          
          The holidays are not a good time for me. For the first time, I am spending them alone. It may seem depressing to some, but I promise this is my good ending. Just last year around this time, I was in an extremely terrible relationship that almost cost me my life—and isolated me from everyone I cared about. My family made it known I truly wasn’t of use to them anymore—unless I was giving them things to benefit them. The reason holidays have sucked so much in the past is because I never a traditional one, my family too deep into their addictions to have money for anything. Soon as I started working at 15, they took from me every chance they could and I was always the one providing for the small things I could for our holidays. 
          
          My DV issues and family issues have bled into this year of course, but this was also the year I put my foot down. Because of my abus3r, I fell hard into my own addictions and depression. Addiction runs in the family, right? I was h1gh or drunk every single day. I decided all of that had to stop. I went sober, no contact with family, pressed charges on my ex. Once again, a holiday alone may seem sad to some. But I promise, this quiet and peace is what I needed all along. I’ve been trying to give more to others, donating to charities and giving whenever I could. I’m doing things that make me feel good like writing again. Thank you all for sticking by me, you all are a big reason I’m doing better. I truly can’t thank you all enough, whether we are friends or you are just someone whose stories I enjoy (or if you’re just a fan of my crazy worlds somehow lol). If it’s a tough time for you too—give yourself some grace. Do things that make you feel happy no matter how small. I am here if you need. 

Sunday Morning is getting so much more reception than I ever thought it would, and it is so inspiring. Thank you guys for all of the reads and wonderful comments. I don’t have too much time to write… but I’m pushing myself more and more just because all of this feedback has made me so happy. And Jax and Diana haven’t even met yet!!! New chapter this week sometime, perhaps more than one because I don’t have any classes. 
          
          (Also in drafts: new eye of the night chapter, multiple psych fics, and a darker Jax fic!) 

PRCTTYODD PSYCH FIC… who said that??? 

New Sunday Morning chapter is out!!! (: 

hi, i was just wondering what happened to your leafyishere fanfic? i really enjoyed it and it's like one of my favs! also im so glad ur back <3