I'm lazy, selfish, hypocritical, insecure, clumsy, confused, shady, judgmental and lonely. In short -I'm a sensitive spawn of satan, a social antisocial, and a smart dumbass. 

 Hopelessly in love and hoping for a happy life with him, even in this world of unexistent eternity. 

 Eighteen years of falling in and out of love, but in all hopefulness, desiring for him to be with me for the rest of my life - despite my vulnerability and incapability of being sane.