preciselylilac

Surprise! Surprise! Haha ❤️✨ 

Hi everyone,❤️
          I know I’ve been MIA for a while now. Things behind the scenes kept getting more and more twisted and tangled, but I genuinely believe everything happens for our hidden growth and a better future.
          
          To be completely transparent, I don’t have a definitive timeline for when I’ll be back to writing. Haan, cheezein figure out kar paa rahi hoon main, but my mental health and emotional balance seem to face a new challenge every single day. I'm just taking it one day at a time.
          
          Since I will be MIA for a bit longer, I’ve been thinking of a little something for you all. I'm planning to make Sentinel's Melody and Ardhsarp free on STCK ME and republish them on Wattpad! That way, anyone interested can read, catch up, and make up their minds if they’d like to stay by our side and join the continuation in the near future.
          
          And who knows... maybe you'll get Rudra's book too?  It is strictly a future project, but those of you who have been around for a long time already know that it did get published in a bit of a frenzy in the past, hehe. So definitely let me know your thoughts on this!
          
          I miss you all so much. I miss Robin, I miss our demi-god baby (honestly, since you guys have literally babied him from his very first human appearance, it’s completely rubbed off on me too!), and I miss letting the horses of my brain run wild to bring Krisha closer to her Hulk.
          
          I hope you all are doing well and staying safe from these severe heatwaves. Please take care of yourselves!
          
          P.S. For today, I’m doing an Ask Me Anything (AMA) over on my Instagram handle. If you want to come goof around, distract me, or just chat, please hop along!
          
          Lots of love,
          Rudhvika ✨

How are you vika ?

Sometimes I feel my chest so heavy , throat so tight like someone is choking me

Bad news- I wrote about 3k words for the next update yesterday and then it just didn't work out. So now all of that needs to be written from scratch, in a different setup. 
          
          Also, I'm not ranting here for sympathy or anything...but mere thode zyada hi bade wale ghode laga rahi zindagi currently(clown emoji). Aise aise chante pad rahe hain na...lol eye opening up experience though. But I won't say much here, as I recently got a lesson that not every space is as safe as it seems for me to open up. I don't like the type of person I am turning out to be. So, I should be rather learning how to bottle up things again.
          
          And at this point it seems like writing chhoot jayegi...let's see.
          
          Aap log please apna khayal rakhiye, especially apni mental health ka. Kabhi agar qalam ki siyahi ne phirse saansein baksh di mujhe to zarur laotungi.
          
          Love you guys!❤️

As I'm trying to write the rest of the next update for Sentinel's Melody, I have to discuss a few important points with you all. 
          
          So, Krisha and Robin's first ever interaction, acc to Hamari Raahein, happens in Hawa-Hawai. And after all those chaos they all go on the night out.
          
          Which is exactly what had my attention all this time because I had a few ideas on how to flip those scenes around to make Krisha the centre of the chapter this time.
          
          So I wanted to ask you guys that, do you guys want me to cover everything in order? Which is going to be lengthy to be honest and our main leads will feel like background characters for a while again...
          
          Or is it okay if I skip the important moments of Som- Tara so that we can have our focus on Krisha-Robin, entirely. 
          
          If you choose the later one, I will skip to their first interaction straight after the chapter opening scenes, and we may have their first night out in the wip update itself. So what do you guys say? The earlier you respond the faster I get to sit and plan everything out.
          
          Let me know!

I’m writing this while staring at a "10 MB data remaining" notification on my phone, and honestly, I am just so furious and done with everything right now. Writing has been my only real escape and purpose lately, but it feels like the people around me literally cannot digest my peace.
          
          I don't want to name names, but my data gets completely wiped out first thing in the morning by someone else before I even get a chance to touch it. By 10 or 11 AM when I finally have a second to sit down, it’s already gone. Today I tried to manage with a bit of wifi, but the phone was literally taken from me until the wifi connection was lost again. Like, I finally got the motivation to write today, went to open WordHippo for synonyms, and boom!!! no internet. I can't even write or give you guys raw drafts without data.
          
          And the worst part? Just two days ago I was thinking how scared I was of losing the genuine readers and amazing connections I’ve just started building here if I don’t update on time. Guess the devil was listening closely and decided to prove me right. 
          
          I can't even ask this person to stop because I'm already treated like the villain here.
          
          I'm so sorry, but I really don’t know how things are going to unfold for me. Nothing is going to get better here. This whole situation is turning me into such a bitter pessimist and I hate it. I love you guys, and I’m so grateful for your support, but I’m completely stuck right now. 
          
          I hope atleast this one gets posted-
          
          Sincere apology.
          Lilac.

@preciselylilac true aurat bhi kuch kaam nhi . We need to be alert all the time to keep us safe n sound 

@Purbareads Ispe to main bhi kuch opposite nahi bolungi because, I go through the same. And at this point yes it is men, but mostly it's just that sick mentality, regardless of the gender, that triggers me the most. I'm sure iska reason hoga, and not to mention hum jo itni normalised News sunte hain aye din woh to hain hi kaafi to instill this fear in us. Aaj kal ke time pe aadmi/aurat sabse alert raho for the sake of your security. But I get it, sometimes we all just wish ke itna guarded kaash sab kuch na rakhna padta humein. 

@Purbareads Thank you so much Purba❤️❤️❤️how are you now?