prestigiousmidget

[!] psa 
          	
          	i'm sorry for the sudden announcement but it's very important that i make this post. i've never really wanted to do this but i've been struggling for quite sometime now. & it hasn't gotten better — only progressively worse. i feel like everytime i want or try to rp, i feel good about it for approximately three days & then i just crash hard, fully convinced that everything i make is shitty & worthless . at least that's what it feels like . it's become quite a burden both creatively, mentally, & physically speaking. i'm thinking that i need to take a step back & focus on myself & on my own health. then somehow let myself fall back in love with writing & rping in general. that & i feel because of my emotional state that it has heavily been influencing the portrayal of some of my ocs, mainly alex as a whole & not in a positive way either. & that stems from letting my moods dictate how i respond. i've generally been feeling miserable & things that are going on irl such as financial struggles with my family tend to be a huge factor to this. because of this, i haven't been getting along with my companions, & as much as we're trying to remain optimistic, it's been difficult for us all. not saying that it's the only thing but it's one of many factors. i've also taken notice that i've centered nearly every interaction around alex whilst not being considerate of other characters + other characters feelings & i feel really bad about it after having realized i've done this. so i want to apologize for that as well , it was not my intention. i wasn't aware of this this until a personal friend of mine made that known to me , & it made me realize how i've been going about it this entire time , it was wrong. 
          	
          	( continued  )

prestigiousmidget

@WAYNEVOGUE 
          	  
          	  it has nearly gotten to the point in active rp situations , where i mishandle situations & allow my emotions to dictate my response. i don't think clearly when this happens. i need to truthfully focus on more important things going on irl such as work on becoming a more independent person & starting my life off as an young adult. i'd like to focus on maybe on getting a job & starting my life off the right way if that makes any sense? but i can't help but feel like wattpad is holding me back in that aspect? while i do love && appreciate this app it hasn't done me any favors as of late. it's only made things worse for me. my mental & physical health comes first above everything else.
          	  
          	  but among other things i also wanted to take a moment to express how much i do really appreciate my friends / mutuals & i'm grateful to have met you all on this app. & i wanted to thank you all for being so understanding & patient with me despite my struggles. i do genuinely enjoy our interactions both in rp & ooc . thank you again, & again, i am sorry about this, but i have to go. 
          	  
          	  bye for now! 
          	  
          	  — anya
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prestigiousmidget

[!] psa 
          
          i'm sorry for the sudden announcement but it's very important that i make this post. i've never really wanted to do this but i've been struggling for quite sometime now. & it hasn't gotten better — only progressively worse. i feel like everytime i want or try to rp, i feel good about it for approximately three days & then i just crash hard, fully convinced that everything i make is shitty & worthless . at least that's what it feels like . it's become quite a burden both creatively, mentally, & physically speaking. i'm thinking that i need to take a step back & focus on myself & on my own health. then somehow let myself fall back in love with writing & rping in general. that & i feel because of my emotional state that it has heavily been influencing the portrayal of some of my ocs, mainly alex as a whole & not in a positive way either. & that stems from letting my moods dictate how i respond. i've generally been feeling miserable & things that are going on irl such as financial struggles with my family tend to be a huge factor to this. because of this, i haven't been getting along with my companions, & as much as we're trying to remain optimistic, it's been difficult for us all. not saying that it's the only thing but it's one of many factors. i've also taken notice that i've centered nearly every interaction around alex whilst not being considerate of other characters + other characters feelings & i feel really bad about it after having realized i've done this. so i want to apologize for that as well , it was not my intention. i wasn't aware of this this until a personal friend of mine made that known to me , & it made me realize how i've been going about it this entire time , it was wrong. 
          
          ( continued  )

prestigiousmidget

@WAYNEVOGUE 
            
            it has nearly gotten to the point in active rp situations , where i mishandle situations & allow my emotions to dictate my response. i don't think clearly when this happens. i need to truthfully focus on more important things going on irl such as work on becoming a more independent person & starting my life off as an young adult. i'd like to focus on maybe on getting a job & starting my life off the right way if that makes any sense? but i can't help but feel like wattpad is holding me back in that aspect? while i do love && appreciate this app it hasn't done me any favors as of late. it's only made things worse for me. my mental & physical health comes first above everything else.
            
            but among other things i also wanted to take a moment to express how much i do really appreciate my friends / mutuals & i'm grateful to have met you all on this app. & i wanted to thank you all for being so understanding & patient with me despite my struggles. i do genuinely enjoy our interactions both in rp & ooc . thank you again, & again, i am sorry about this, but i have to go. 
            
            bye for now! 
            
            — anya
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