hello everyone. i wanted to come on here and explain my silence lately. i know i’ve mentioned multiple times that i’ve had writer’s block or that i’ve been busy with irl things, and while those things are true, there’s a little more to it than that.
on top of being active here and on tiktok, i’m also active on tumblr where i spend a lot of time talking about larry, the industry, closeting, and sharing information with newer larries. i love doing it, but having a larger following also comes with a lot more attention, and unfortunately not all of it is good.
getting hate for being a larrie doesn’t bother me. i’ve been in this fandom for 15 years. disagreements and fandom drama are nothing new to me. but when that hate moves beyond fandom differences and turns into personal attacks on my body and my character, that’s where i have to draw a line.
over the last few months, i’ve received anonymous messages attacking my appearance and my body, and it has caused a major setback in my recovery journey and my mental health. that has also started bleeding into my writing. i’ve slowly been stepping back from the larry and one direction fandom to recenter myself because no fandom is worth emotional turmoil.
this is not me “unlarrying,” and this is not me saying i’m done writing larry fanfiction. that will never be the case. but to put it plainly: i’m not okay right now.
writing has always been my escape, and when even that becomes difficult, it’s hard to know what to do with myself. i have so many ideas i still want to create and so many stories i still want to finish, and i don’t want any of you feeling like i’m abandoning them.
i will be back. i promise. i’m still writing little things here and there, keeping ideas for later. for now, please continue loving the stories i already have out.
i love you all.
