I hate letting what you did to me affect how I treat the next person. I start questioning everything and I blame you because now I don't even trust myself anymore. Been finding people worse than you which sends me running back to you. But this time feels different they make me wanna keep you as far from me as possible, not for them but for me. I know I deserve happiness but new love is hard to accept because I'm so used to your "love" . But this is a new start for me and it scares me how much I've been enjoying it. Finding myself in the process though I thought I had fully lost me to you. I'm coming back : )