It’s good to talk to someone about it. Tho make them swear not to say anything to anyone else. I have never had a panic attack before but I’ve seen two of my friends have one and it’s the most scary thing ever I really hope you feel better soon. My mum talks about my weight all the time too which has made me really insecure so I can understand some of what you’re going through, honestly that’s such a rude thing to do. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you, weight doesn’t matter, society sucks. You should never been insecure about your weight it’s not at all a big deal wear what you like, eat what you like, do whatever you like (no drugs.) and honestly you will be beautiful no matter what weight you are. I just don’t look lmao. Ugh coping mechanisms suck idk what whoever your going to talk to is going to say but from personal experiences drawing on my arm works, listening to music, reading, writing, hell I even tried writing music once (didn’t go well) find something that suits you nobody can tell you to do anything you don’t want to do. Find things to distract yourself, take up a new hobby like sewing or something fun like that. Make sure to keep your friends and talk to them. They are probably concerned and you can’t tell me that they aren’t because I thought that too but recently realised that they are better than any therapist and probably care more about me than my family do. I hope your friends are the same. I get that feeling of knowing what’s wrong with you but not knowing at the same time, life is so confusing, it throws things at you, you just need to keep going it will get better I swear, if you ever want to talk to me we can exchange trauma stories. Seriously it gets better I know that everyone says that but it is true so please give life another chance, cut contact with everyone and move school for all I care but just as long as you’re alive and happy I’m happy. Love you my platonic fiancé ❤️❤️
