procrastinatedprince

happy chinese new year

Growing is realizing that not everything has to do with your mental illness and trauma.
          
          I’ve made so many mistakes in the past and blamed it all on the fact that I’m (yes, diagnosed by a professional and not self-diagnosed like those other people) bipolar and on the autism spectrum (level 1). I’ve forced my trauma onto someone and I feel like absolute shit for that.
          
          I’ve hurt the people around me and excused my behavior and the way I acted towards them with my disabilities. It’s really pathetic, really! 
          
          And I still don’t have the balls to apologize! I genuinely want to, but I can’t bring myself to.
          
          It’s not that I can’t and don’t want to apologize but rather that I can’t physically show my face to them and apologize because I’m not confident enough to do so. 

I genuinely hate C.AI for taking away my creativity as a writer.
          
          It made me lazy, too direct when writing and overall made a decrease in my skills as a writer. It lessened my imagination as well, I can’t think of any plots now that I have a bot who can actually do that for me. It’s kind of sad, really.
          
          Anyways, if I do continue writing, I’ll most likely post them all on ao3 from now on.

GUYS IM GONNA WRITE AGAIN!!!

Jusko Lord

Antarctica is growing flowers. We need to do something about global warming or else we’ll all die from it.

as someone who’s struggling with body image, i’m finally starting a diet!! it’s better than torturing yourself by starving yourself. it’s not really going to make me lose fat, but it’ll make me lose weight and that’s a step closer to my goal of losing weight and fat. i’m just not ready to start exercising because i’m too lazy to.

just read 10 years where i loved you the most and it emotionally scarred me. i ugly cried for 30 whole minutes just because i read the fucking manhua. it’s so heart wrenching. i don’t recommend reading it if you don’t want to torture yourself:)

i’m probably going to post it on ao3 though

I SUDDENLY HAD THE IDEA TO MAKE A HYUNCHAN FANFIC CALLED LAST LOVE AURGHHH