Alexandra

There is no friendship between 3 people, sad enough I realized it just now.

My uncle will be buried tomorrow and I cant even say goodbye to him because of the fcking coronavirus  that killed him and now wont even let us see him for the last time. And the worst thing that his death is everywhere on the news. I literally wanna tell everyone how pergect he was and how good his political views were but no one cares

Cured from depression but diagnosed with PTSD . Life is good!)

Is it like fine for parents wanting for their child to stay in the hometown forever? Like I just told my mum that I'm sending my applications to the unis around the world and she still wants me to graduate in this shitty god forgotten town or, maybe , just maybe in this country, like that's minimum. Like she knows that I've been wanting it and trying to do everything that I could since I was 5 yo and now she's just like 'nope, you'll graduate here' just thank you mum, thank you  but still I'll try

Before pandemic I wanted to take part in marketing competition and there weren't a lot of chances for me to be enrolled. The requirement was to make a CV video of me and the people in my group. I had only one person who wanted to do it but then I convinced my BF and the other girl that I was acquainted with decided to join us too the last minute. It took us a month to form a real group,  we had 2 day to shoot the CV and I honestly thought we wouldn't make it but WE DID!!!! It's like getting into the uni of your dream but the chances of taking part in that freaking competition were still very low and I honestly thought that they forgot about our existence due to me not getting an email for the whole week after the announcement time(but they actually did it just today). Sorry for spamming around but I'm just SO HAPPY!!!)))

On the 4th of February 2020 , my uncle died. He's had 4th stage of cancer and I still feel tertible. Terrible because I knew about him being dead and was smiling to my grandparents' faces (aka his parents) when they had no clue. Terrible because our whole family including me was blaming him for not doing chemo. Terrible because we all thought that he cared only about money because he hadn't spent a penny on his treatment. Terrible because no one knew about his condition. Terrible because I havent shed a tear at his funeral but in reality I couldn't in front of my daddy who found out about his big brother's  death just a day ago and who had to be on the road 20 hours straight with his cried out eyes, in front of my 78 year old granny who almost fainted there and my 82 year old grandpa who couldn't stop crying.   God I feel so terrible but deep down i realise that i would never be able to tell my parents or sister/brother that the time will come soon and that it would be easier to hear about how selfish I am than hurt anyone. 

I know it's not the best place but my uncle died a day before yesterday and he always wanted me to study abroad and my parents finally decided to send me to study somewhere there but because they're not really rich, could someone suggest me some full scholarships that do not require to have a bachelor's degree 

Finally turned into a 17 year old!!!! Yeah guys!!!!

Does anyone know how to make like an Instagram account of someone in Photoshop/PicsArt or anything? I've been trying to find how to do it for days and there's still nothing useful(((

Hi! Swifie sported!