“you know what hurts the most? it’s not that we drifted — it’s that i realized i wasn’t trusted enough.
nuwangi, you had problems and never told me. i would’ve stayed up the whole night if you just said a word, but instead you chose silence. do you know how small that made me feel? like i was just a temporary friend, not someone you could lean on.
and nethuli… you teaching her commerce while avoiding me — that one cut deep. it wasn’t about the subject, it was about you both building something i wasn’t invited to anymore. it’s wild how the people who once wiped my tears are now the reason i cry.
if you guys actually wanted me in your life, you’d talk to me, right? it feels like you’re purposely ignoring me — like this is some kind of revenge for something i don’t even understand. and that hurts even more, because i never once tried to make either of you feel left out.
and i don’t ignore you if you talk, right? i never have. it’s just…I realised ....it feels like you guys don’t like me anymore. if i’m annoying, or if i did something wrong — please, just tell me. i’d rather hear the truth than be left in silence wondering what changed.
but if ignoring me makes you relax or feel happy, then i don’t mind. i just don’t want to bother you anymore. i guess i’m learning that sometimes caring too much makes people pull away..
you both made me cry when all i ever did was care. i hope one day you realize what that costs — losing someone who actually loved you without conditions.”
