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I’m watching a 4 hour long video. (It’s all the parts of the game the YouTube played) and all my ads what are every 10 or so minutes range from 3 minutes to 50 minutes long. WHO PAID FOR A WHOLE EPISODE OF THEIR PODCAST TO PLAY INFRONT OF MY TIMBERBORN VIDEO? 
          
          At least I can skip them all. But I was just trying to play my video game while listening. Instead I’m being inturprd by a 5 minute political ad, a 50 minute podcast, a very boarding and bad edited ad to something idk, a ai video that is 4 minutes long asking how I feel mentally. And those are the ones I remember. LIKE WHO SPENDS THAT MUCH MONEY ON GARBAGE ADS? Ads are expensive bro
          
          This is now I’m spending the first few hours in 2025 ;-; 

I love when my cat purs just because he seen me like Uodbeixkevdi he loves meeejxvdkc dj

Tf do I do now? Why is life so boring ;-;
          
          I do something enjoyable and now I just like exist?!? Doesn’t make sence I’m always bored.

Merry Christmas to those who celebrate! <3

My family arrived 2 hours late. So I went to ky room, now I don’t know how to go join them. Do I pretend I don’t exist? Will that hurt their feelings? How am I going to make my Mack and cheese? Help. Send help pls. Pls. PLEASE

Turns out everyone in my town went “it’s December 24th the movie theatre will have no one there. Even tho it’s everything is 5$ day”
          
          Nope. This will be the most filled theatres I have seen in my whole life. Even my whole grade going in 4th grade filled up less seats. I’m lucky there were even seats left for me to buy. 
          
          God dam people. It’s Christmas Eve go do something else and let me watch sonic 3 with my brother in peace;-;

Watched a Tommyinnit video - realized I wasted my youth being depressed - made a TikTok about it - it gets a lot of views - I doom scroll - I have a realization I am at the tipping point I’m stress and anger - I go take a piss - I see my siblings playing a game that they promised to not play without me - I start to break down due to everything adding up - I go on a walk so I don’t ruin my life over one day - I come back, my brother is being anoyying - I stare at him. He doesn’t know what that’s walk prevented - but nether do I. I just know I was gonna ruin my life -  lash out - I leave - he text me. I say some life ruining shit - my walk didn’t work. - I apologize even tho i wasn’t ready - I now am staring at my screen now sure how the f a tommyinnit video led me here.

So every year for Christmas since I met my best friend I wrote her a note because I didn’t have money to buy her a gift. Last Christmas I was big, like HUGELY into love joy. It was a big part of me, and with that came my love for Wilbur. 
          
          In the note I said something along the lines of “I’m to have met one of the best people alive (sorry you can’t surpass Wilbur soot)” ABHAHDJDAYSI. She told me that as we hung out today as she has the 2 notes on her wall. 

Of course I get an idea that is good and I want to write as I’m getting ready for work. EVERY TIME MAN. 
          
          Might upload it here, but yk I say that a lot and then never upload a story as I don’t get past chapter 1. 

It’s my brothers birthday :3 
          
          SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY PLEASSEE! He’s officially 12. He’s getting so olddd