@psycsyh
The baby fever- NOOOO
I don’t want children
I don’t want kids
I don’t want a baby
I’m to selfish for a kid
I’m to lazy for a kid
I like my free time
I like not being needed
I like my money
I want to travel
I don’t want kids
Why do I keep day dreaming about having kids ;-;
Tis very awkward putting your two weeks in an and then saying nvm…
Definitely not something I have to do later today. It’s approved my managers, we have a new agreement I just got to tell my boss that her bosses says I can have one shift a month so I stay on payroll just incase something goes wrong at my new job lmao.
I’m 18 now bitches!!! Rahh
Started this account at 13 years old and I still use the app every day… welp
I am hungover and feel so fucking nauseous it’s not even funny. I got sick all over my floor last night and can’t even sit up because of how nauseous I am so it’s just kind of sitting there… all over my dirty laundry, belt and headphones ;-;
Also there is a half eaten croissant on my bed don’t know why. I hope to finish it later after my mom comes home with the gravol I asked her to buy me.
I went years bro, years without trowing up. I have had suck bad illnesses it’s not even funny and still didn’t trow up. Until last night where when I found myself sobering up I decided to have more and well. It’s all over my floor.
I got lost while writing that. I am just complaining about trowing up. Which I just did again while writing. Adding more to my collection on the floor. When my mom gets home I’ll get her to grab me something to get sick in so when I manage to clean it up I don’t need to reclean my floor immediately.
I got sick again :(
I was trying to do the laundry cause I got sick all over my laundry last night and well… now it’s all over to laundry room floor.
Well that’s not true, it’s all cleaned up, so is my room. Well I’ll want to clean it up again tmr, cause it was a rushed job. But it’s wiped up and cleaned up enough.
I want to shower and brush my teeth so bad but I can’t cause then I’ll throw up. I have my stop watch on cause once 3 hours hit of not getting sick I’m eating plain rice. I was gonna add butter to it so it’s less bland but google says the fat in butter might upset my stomach again. They said I can add soya sauce but I don’t think I can handle soya sauce.
Also is it soya or soy sauce? Like I hear everyone say soya but the bottle says soy and then there are a few that say soya but I know it’s the same product. Or at least I think so.
Okay I googled it. Soy is the us spelling, soya is the uk spelling. Canada weird cause we use both. Wait I’m going to my ranting book cause I gotta
Tho on the bright side I don’t feel nauseous anymore. So imma take advantage of that rn and clean as much as I can before it comes back
A BOY ASKED FOR MY NUMBERRRR!! AAHHHHAHAHDHDBDUD
THERE IS A FRENCH MAN IN MY HOUSE. WHYY?!?
Oh how did I quit using TikTok? Oh, well some how every time I open the app even if I make new accounts I get damp/2020 era of stuff and then when those few specific people pop up I break. It’s always those comfort duos, Bench trio, Tubbo and Ranboo (can’t remember the name), crime boys, techno (alone or with anyone tbh).
Sob. Straight sobbing.
Today I went on cause my hair looks good and some times I like to make and post privately videos of me lip singing cause sometimes pictures isn’t enough and I was scrolling to find a song/ out of boredom and it’s started with Slime popping up and I was like “okay but no more pls” and then the muffin song and that brought back memories. Then a video of Tommy and Wilbur singing? Closed the app. Not going back for another few months guys. Can’t do it.
Lots of my life is still surrounded by this faze of my life, like I still write fanfiction of Tommy in it to help me sleep. I’m still in his discord server, my life brights up a bit when some random thing of a few specific people pop up and I learn how they’re doing. Like Niki, Ranboo, tubbo, Tommy.
I still feel comfort from that time part of why is because I can’t move on to the last faze that truly brought me comfort, part of it is because it was my life for so long, but also it was the last time I was a kid. When I started getting in to the whole thing I was losing my childhood to an illness and tommyinnit reminds me so much of who I was before this illness took my life and he helped prolong its life. But those specific ones they hurt hard.
A guy is living in my house for the next few days. He doesn’t speak a wink of English, and I’ve lost all my French except basics greetings. So… this will be fun
Guys you know the stories you’re adding to your reading list… suck right?
Read my new freaking story. It’s decent last time I checked. I know I need to upload more but I’m pretty sure the three chapters it does have is more words then the shitty ones from when I was 14
I won’t delete my old work cause we love to look back and cry here, but every time someone adds a story of mine to their reading this I ca feel my self dying lol
Just started reading a real book (crazy ik right)
Well… it’s just as my kindle subscription gonna end. I bought it in hopes I’d read, then I didn’t. So I canceled it, it should end in December 24th and of course I just started reading a book that happens to be a 4 part series and only way to get it is on kindle unlimited.
So… also why does a book with 140,000 reviews not have a physical book? You’d make more money off that and it lets me be able to freaken read your book. I can’t have subscription cause I have to budget for things. I’ll just rebuy the subscription when I have the budget for it, and cancel it right away just to read a few more books. A month should be enough for me to read more than one book. I am halfway through this one in just two days and ive not had much time to read so…