puddin-g

hi hello sorry for never updating anymore
          
          the beginning of this year was kinda hectic for me. moving, classes, and having two jobs lowkey made me not want to write bc i didn't want to use my brain at all
          
          thought i was gonna be up this summer bc school is over so that means i can write more!!!
          
          NO I GET INTO A CAR ACCIDENT AT THE END OF MAY.  
          
          anyways i got my baby back from the hospital yesterday so we good again 
          
          but hopefully i can still throw out some chapters in the next month or so :))
          
          thank u to everyone and your guy's patience <3
          
          i promise i will not leave u guys hanging on a cliffhanger 

internalized homophobia will always be my favorite type of angst #ngl
          
          will be abusing it in xo 

posted smth different on tiktok!
          
          https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8p27Hhu/

got vip 2 for enhypen im so excited omfg

posted oikawa's part for xo on tiktok!! this is part two :3
          
          https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8g9gUxa/

i have a fun little rin x iwaizumi, nana x bokuto, and kageyama x oikawa (all in one) fanfic all planned out in my head from the start to finish and i have yet to write anything for the past 7 months 
          
          yeah whatever. 

loved gojo so much hes going to be permanently on me forever

i haven't written anything in literally six months oh it's bad.....

this is genuinely such a weird place for me to vent out my feelings and emotions but i NEED somewhere to say this
          
          i started stanning enhypen in late 2021, a little bit right after their first year anniversary and this was due to sunghoon. i used to watch figure skating videos in class during middle school and he was one of them. looked up what he was doing now and the rest was literally history 
          
          i was so lucky to see enhypen live during manifesto 2022, fate 2023, fate + 2024, and lately walk the line 2025
          
          they're my first every group that i've grown attached to and the reason why they got me back into kpop. i've tried to stan other groups on the same level but none ever stuck the same as they did 
          
          i was 16 when i first started to stan them. i'm now 20, turning 21 later in the year. they were a core part of me during my teenage years 
          
          now, heeseung left the group. or more so, got kicked out in my opinion 
          
          i don't really know what to feel about this situation. i want to continue to support all seven of them but enhypen really isn't enhypen with just six members 
          
          my bookshelf of their albums, plushies, and lightsticks is staring right back at me, like im some fucking joke 

heeseung just left enhypen 
          
          what's the point of me living anymore genuinely