When I was nine I was curious and i found out I liked wearing dresses and girls clothes I found out it was crossdressing about 2 years ago when my grandma told me about it soon after the longest time I started to pray each night I wanted to be a girl to just wake up with me being a boy a dream but my wish never comes true I wanna be able to have a period and have kids and stuff like that but I never will since I was born a boy ps i still like girls but THAT DOES NOT MEAN I DONT ACCEPT GUYS LIKING GUYS..... i mean u never know i may like a guy in the future for now tho i just like girls so i guess i am considered a lesbian but I still wish to be a girl to just wake up with no penis between my legs to wake up with weight in my chest and long beautiful hair covering my face and touching my shoulders to wake up with a thinner body and wider butt like girls have but I will never even if I get a sex change I will never be 100% girl I have few people who know this about me and accept this some people iv told see it as weird ignore it or cared but left me i try to ignore the fact even tho its hurts inside I feel to insecure to even if they know to dress in anything around them that would show. I crossdress in secret even tho my grandpa and grandma know they accept it but its so awkward and I'm afraid of being in some situation that someone comes to our house and I have to answer the door dressed with know way of hiding it