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happy new year guys!!! <3

alhamdulillah the day has come; my country is finally free!!! 

may Allah protect syria and the people of syria
          may Allah protect my beautiful Al Hasaka and keep its people safe 
          may Allah protect all innocent lives 

i have been making pros/cons lists of random guys from my school and it’s the most entertaining thing ever 

HI ML!! it’s been so so long. i recently got back on wattpad and i wanted to reach out and see how you were doing! you were such a big part of my life and i would love to reconnect <33

guys sthg crazy happend on my school trip to london (actually a LOT happend), the fire alarm went off so obviously everyone went outside, but i had just changed into my pjs (a sleeveless shirt) and it was FREEZING outside so a guy offered me his hoodie and i was going to wear it but then when we were told that it was a false alarm, so i gave it back. after i gave it back the alarm went off again, so i said as a joke “well give me the hoodie again” but he didn’t hear me so his best friend gave me his LEATHER jacket!!!

this sounds so fucking stupid but i wanted to message you because i want to be friends w you but i haven’t been on this app for so ducking long that i’ve genuinely forgotten how to pm someone LMAO 

hi, im sorry i do not recognise you but i am sure we must have had several convos before and i would like to rekindle that friendship 
          
          wp nowadays is very dead and i, myself also contribute to it but it'll be great to become friends again!

i was going through my mb and i really really really miss you guys i wish we all never stopped using wattpad cause it was so much fun. also in 2020-2021 it felt like everyone knew each other, like every single person i talked to, shared at least 2 mutuals with me. i really miss everyone being active:/ the worst thing is that most people didn’t share their contacts back then (i didn’t either) so i have no way of contacting my old friends and i don’t even know what is going on in their lives and will probably never know. i haven’t regularly used wattpad since 2021 so i can’t blame anyone for doing the same but it just feels like wattpad is a very quiet place now which i’m not used to. i don’t even think anyone is going to reply to this— that’s how dead it now is. 

ever since i turned 18 i’ve been SOO scared to acknowledge the fact that i’m not a little girl anymore and liam dying just proved to me that my childhood and girlhood are over. i’m not a little girl anymore, listening and dancing to oned songs. i’m also not a teenage girl anymore, staying up all night waiting for updates on a possible reunion. it feels like such a big part of me has been taken away and i will never ever get it back again. without him, without one direction i would have been a COMPLETELY different person. i wouldn’t have met so many of the amazing people i know now. i will forever be thankful to liam and 1D for helping become the person that i am today and for helping me create some of the best memories
          
          i never expected myself to grieve a member of 1D at only 18 years old, i always thought that wouldn’t happen until i was at least 50. i’m still numb and unable to process any of this. i love you, liam. i wish i could’ve told you this.