pychohale
I wanna make vid edits again omg
pychohale
pychohale
went outside again today :p did small shopping and had lunch and a doctors appointment.
pychohale
I can’t believe I am 25 and have only had one job in my life and that was only because my mom got it for me and it was two years ago. I’m sick a loser and a failure
pychohale
@prcttyodd sadly I only held that job from the end on Nov to I think Jan lol I wish it had been two years!
prcttyodd
look at it in a positive way: you’ve held a job for two years!!! that is NOT nothing. I’ve struggled with myself because I waited to go back to college, only to realize life is so much better once we stop comparing ourselves to others. Nobody is the judge on when things should be done in life, we all move at different speeds!!!
cIayevans
miss you love you!!
pychohale
If I wasn’t afraid of dying idk I’d be here tbh — everyone irl would be so much better without me tbh
pychohale
hi everyone! I hope you’re doing well, I love all of you
pychohale
lol so the third day no depression/ocd med, sad a poo but I just deep cleaned my room ( I have been very depressed for SO LONG even now and I had let so much stuff build up where I looked like a hoarder fr and so much dust and spider webs that I’ve got most all basically clean (I am WAY outta shape so by the end I couldn’t do anymore so I didn’t get the clutter of my clothing dresser or behind my tv dresser so there be dust and spider webs lol) but I have packed most of my books (I have no book shelf only a table) and I have kept out my hp and pjo first two series along with a few extra books (two asoiaf books and a marvel book about loki, my fellowship of the ring first book, and a few musk books I like and my divergent series but I’ve packed all the rest which were only one of series or a series missing a book (sue me for keeping the asoiaf, fellowship and my one chronicle of narnia book but I do be loving them lol I’ll get the rest of the series hopefully soon) but I packed the rest till I get a bookshelf or we move to a better place haha.
This was so long winded but I am having mad anxiety/ocd thought that I need to speak and I have been so depressed that I haven’t really left the house for years and have zero irl friends lol.
axnqel
Misss youuu omg I haven’t been on here in so long !!
pychohale
lol I miss private messages on here lol
pychohale
ugh I haven’t cried this much in so long I am not okay rn lol. I need this side effects of stopping my meds to pass so bad I’ve not hated myself so much