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im actually convinced the school has it out for me cus WHAT DO YOU MEAN I GET ONLY 1 CLASS WITH MY SILLIES????????? ONLY 1?????? FOR THE ENTIRETY OF GRADE 9??????????? ONG i will LOSE it if i cant change my french and buisness class 

no cus what… do… you… MEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????? 
          
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i lowk need to shut up on here but im going insane within the last 15 minutes i keep on seeing figures going down the stairs or right next to the sink  but when i look theres nothing there guys i think i may be going insane

kind of just hit me that ive officially actually lost everything. i really dont want to sound spoiled but this house was my safe space for the past 10 years and now i have to say goodbye. looking at townhouses breaks my heart because of how much of a downgrade it is from this house to one thats half the size. i know this sounds stupud and spoiled cus its just a house but the memories i made and living here is something i know i will forget and im not ready for that. im not ready for change. 

vro i get so much sleep yet the entire day im so fucking tired brah im like 50% sure theres something wrong with me but wut evah ahheahehahehahehahehahehahehahehahehahehahehehaheh

ong im losing it ive gotten 3 C’s in english but my teacher refuses to teach hello she goes through slideshows but doesnt explain how to do it she just says what to do and expects us to figure it out ONG im gonna kms i hate school i hate this fucking semester ever since September life has been absolute dog shit i havent been this bad in so long i genuinely believed it was getting better but the second i do something shitty just comes straight my way and the only people passing my eng class r the kids who ask for more help but i physically cannot it makes me too anxious and i feel like the second i stand next to her i will be the laughing stock like “omg shes so stupid” type of thing i cant do this my anxiety hit an all time high today too during science because of the stupid fucking presentations i was stuttering like crazy and scratching my arm like crazy it bled for a good second but wtv i constantly feeling like kms but i say it too much so now i feel like no one actually believes me when i say it so like do i need to attempt to get it through or what. anyways hate school my english grade is gonna go down from an 83 to probably a 78 or sm i might end it hahaahahahahha oh my god if i get a C on my essay im actually going to end it my letters are already done so hip hip horray! 

i hate how whenever my mom makes her frustrated “AUGH” my first response is to think i did something when i havent ugh it makes my heart sink for no reason and i always stare at where my mom is for a good second to see if shes gonna get up and head towards me or stay put hahHajjaajajjahahH yeah i need to study and lock in but no bro ONG IM COOKED FOR SCIENCR WE R PRESENTING THURSDAY AND MY GROUP HAS NEGATIVE TALKING SKILLS HELLO 

ctommy pfp in the big 25 yep yep yep hahaha

im still so mad about this one vent i typed out i let out ALLLL my feelings and it took me some ocurage to post it but then it said it was oveer the word limit and deleted everything and the second i pressed post and say the little "over word limit" notif i forogt EVERYTHING i wrote about but i KNOW FOR A FACT it was important things #IHATEWATTPAD

i may no longer be 50 days clean but that’s okay