You ever get the feeling of complete disconnection? Like, you do things that would normally make you happy and content, but at the end of the day you end up turning all those scenarios into criticism on yourself. "What if my mother spent too much money on me today?" "Spending this much time on my phone, on a day where I'm supposed to be taking it easy, is selfish; I could be doing work." "Writing these stupid fanfictions isn't doing anyone any good- I suck anyways."
I always tell myself this is a temporary feeling, but honestly it's been going on for weeks now and I don't see it stopping anytime soon.
I just had to get this off my chest