qqtiechan

te aprecio amiguita pero no sé expresar mis sentimientos

qqtiechan

As much as I love him I'd never let myself date him. He's amazing, charming, kind, he puts all his efforts on whatever he wants to achieve, he has so much to do, he has dreams and I know he'll achieve all of them because he's so talented, he wants to live. He deserves someone who has a passion for life, who enjoys living day by day, he deserves someone who isn't me. Every day I curse myself for being alive another day, I don't have the strength to get up every day, I can't talk because I panic, I can't breath by myself, I can't live this wonderful life without having this horrible feeling of a hole in my chest, I can't live properly when there's a heavy feeling of guilt in my shoulders. I don't enjoy living but he does, maybe he could give me the strength to keep me alive but he shouldn't be responsible for something that's my fault. You're the sun that must shine while I'm the cloud that would just stop you from shining like you deserve to. We live at different paces and that's why we were never meant to be. As much as I love you I wish I never met you, but trust me when I say that this is for your own good.

qqtiechan

today I woke up and I mistook my feelings again. I must let myself know that he's an angel and I'm a monster, a decaying flower will never look good with a lively flower. I'm really trying to change but if I hurt myself, what makes me think that I couldn't hurt you too? I wish I wasn't the mentally ill girl that you met, I wish I was a talented girl but it's not the case. Daydreaming a world where I'm a better person for you doesn't automatically make it real and that hurts me so much. I hope this is the last time I write about the feelings I have for you, and If not, please forgive me, not only I'm weak physically, but I'm also weak with my emotions.
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qqtiechan

you're the one I want, the only one I've ever wanted but I don't want you to lose your bright. In this world, you're the brightest star, but even being a star is less than who you truly are. I want to be a better person, just for you, but I can't do it anymore, I'm already giving up on life. If life after death is real, then I promise you I'll be the best I can be, so that I'll be enough for you, just for you. In this life please be happy with whoever you want, just make sure that it's someone who makes you happy and that enjoys life just as much as you. Even if I already gave up I'll still try to change, I want to be enough as your friend.
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