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Do you guys think I'm a bad person? I feel like I'm bieng selfish. kids at school call me ugly, annoying,etc.i sometimes get hit by some of my friends while my other friends just watch I can't leave my best friend Roselyn alone because I feel like a coward. I'm so weak,I can't even control my actions toward my family.
Roselyn if your reading this you probably didn't know any of this, well this would happen when your absent I admire you Roselyn your really strong,me on the other hand,I'm very emotional and I would always cry when I get home from school or I would cry in the middle of the night I wanna die I really do, I don't deserve to live, I'm the reason why my parents aren't close, I'm the reason why my sister hates me,I'm the reason some of my friends in the past don't talk or look at me anymore
I cause to many fights I'm afraid of losing the people I care about I just wanna die. I've been in some accident before and I never died
Why,why don't I just die already? why can't I die I wanna live I don't deserve a family I don't deserve anything
I've been keeping this to myself, my own self. there's a lot of more stuff that has been going on but i feel like I'm blabbering right now, I've been keeping this to myself for SIX years now and I've been thinking of committing suicide all I ever wanted was for people to smile at me a real smile and to care for me but...that's just a fairy tale to me know,you don't know how much I'm crying, crying and begging for someone to come and kill me or I wished I had the courage to kill myself
Everytime I would grab a knife I would remember my sister when she was first born I would remember my first bestest friend since we were in kindergarten those two people are very special to me I wish we could have stayed like that but I guess happily ever afters don't exist in reality, sorry if I was bothering you guys I just wanted to tell someone so I could get some weight off my shoulders, even if it just a tiny bit
