charlotte

Okay. Chapter 7 is up.
          
          I'm nervous. I don't think there are any issues with this chapter, but it's the first one where Mia actually thinks about Carter being trans. I think that that was always going to be tricky. I don't know why this idea spoke to me so much. I don't know why I feel like I'm qualified to tell this story. I just don't know.
          
          I hope you read Chapter 7. I hope you understand I was coming from a place of love, and that I needed to give Mia someplace to grow out of. If she was immediately woke, the conflict would be cut in half. I hope that this chapter doesn't upset anyone. I hope you all have a good day. Thank you
          
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          Love, Charlotte

I think I wrote myself into a bit of a corner. 
          
          I've had the idea for a long time of a transgender bad boy in the traditional Wattpad style. But now I'm worried I'm in over my head. I wrote my protagonist to be ignorant, to learn how to be a better member of society and a better person in general by her falling in love with a trans man. But I don't know where to start.
          
          I still think this is a story worth being told. I'm just nervous I was too arrogant to think I was a good enough writer to tell it well enough. I'm worried that beyond this story just not being entertaining, it'll be offensive. I'm apprehensive as I go into the next chapters, because I know I need to write them properly.
          
          I've heard that poor representation is worse than no representation at all. I would be so upset with myself if this lovely momentum I've been building was destroyed by bad representation on my part.
          
          I'm going to try to talk to my trans friend again today. I want to now more about his experience, and if he'll let me, as a couple questions about his own dating life. Hopefully that will help me get my head on straight.
          
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          Love, Charlotte

Well. I think I'll be posting more regularly now.
          
          I found out my dad didn't get a job he wanted. On top of that, my mom's business is struggling because of COVID-19, and it was confirmed that we're not going back to school on the 6th.
          
          Writing these chapters lets me take something off my to-do list. It lets me do something creative and fun, even when I feel like shit.
          
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          Love, Charlotte

It's been a few days since I posted the last chapter. I don't have an excuse, ad I'm sorry. I'll work very hard to post something every day from now on. After all, consistent posting is how you get a reliable audience.
          
          Besides the lack of posting, my corona break has been going well. I did a Netflix Party with a friend, and Facetimed another one. It's my dad's birthday today. Hurrah. I also have homework to do, which I think will actually be nice. It'll provide a little more stability in my routine.
          
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          Love, Charlotte

So. No chapter yesterday. I kind of dropped the ball, but in my defence my dad took me driving andI took a walk. So it wasn't a waste of a day.
          
          I'll be more vigilant about posting. I said one chapter a day, and while there are no real consequences if I slip, I want to follow this schedule to prove to myself that I can. Plus, I'd image stories with consistent updates would be more steady readers.
          
          Speaking of readers, we're at 3 followers now! Hallelujah! This is already growing a little faster than I expected, I'm excited to see where we end up at the end of the corona break.
          
          Oh, that reminds me. My mom said that although the schools haven't confirmed anything yet, there is almost certainly no chance that they'll reopen in April. So, if we're looking for a bright side, which I suppose we have to, more time to write, I guess?
          
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          Love, Charlotte

Nice story, I enjoy it. 

Okie dokie! Second chapter of the day is up! Still feeling good about how this is going, and very excited to see what happens next with this story. I don't have much to say this time around, I'm just happy I was able to meet my goals.
          
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          Love, Charlotte

First chapter of the day is up! I'm feeling happier with how to story is going, and I'm feeling more confident about my writing. I'm thinking of sharing this account with people in my Lit class and/or people on my Close Friends story.
          
          Besides a second chapter, today I'm going to try to plan out each chapter so I can have a nice satisfying arc. I have a bunch of elements I want to include in this story, and a lot of specific scenes, and I want to make sure they all make sense in this world I'm creating. I think a chapter list is a good way to keep myself on track, along with keeping myself motivated! If I always know which direction the story's going, it'll be a bit easier to keep writing.
          
          Views: 19
          Love, Charlotte

Good news! If you search "The Bad Boy's Girl", my story is only 54th on the list! Wow! Honestly a lot higher than I thought it would be!
          
          I've started on the first chapter of the day, and I won't be moving from my seat until it's published. I'm feeling good today. Hopefully soon I'll have some followers that I don't know in real life, and we'll be one step closer to my goal of having 1 million reads.
          
          Views: Still 15. Which is fine, I guess.
          Love, Charlotte

Only one chapter today. It's fine, but I'm disappointed in myself. I'll be more focused tomorrow. I got distracted by Smosh videos and my friends being very funny in group chats. I guess I have the rest of the Corona break to work AND chill, but I wish I could've hit this goal today. 
          
          The goal for tomorrow will be 2 chapters! And I believe I will do it!
          
          Views: 15
          Love, Charlotte