Mental health post!!
I’m sorry I haven’t been updating my books or starting TBC sequel book. I have been dealing with life mentally. I will soon schedule to be diagnosed with what I think is BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder). I know all the stigmas around this disorder and I’m okay with it because I can breathe now that I finally know what I have been battling mentally with for years.
Remember once you know better you do better.
I perceive myself to be high functioning ( meaning I am now aware of my actions, but not so much triggers so seeking help will better help me manage the disorder.) or “discouraged” bpd (meaning instead of acting out as I used to, my behavior (while it isn’t top notch) it’s internalized because I don’t want people to hate me.)
If you’re interested in looking into it please do. Certain videos on YouTube and research makes it seem like a person with BPD is so horrible when really we are in pain. And wanting to escape the one thing we never can, ourselves. (Please don’t use TikTok for research)
On Wattpad side of things, I have suffered with loss of inspiration and feelings of emptiness which has affected me when It comes to writing my books. I love writing books and sharing my imagination but it has been a struggle.
Moving forward I will be including mental health awareness in my books especially disorders on the Cluster B (antisocial) spectrum (the good and the bad!!) So stay tuned! I genuinely believe this is going to be a new and interesting ride!