BloodyCloudy

hi omg its been so long i got my acc back and went back to wattypaddyyyyy omg the stories i used to read my comments and drafts i miss 2020 sm omg

its been long my dear vent section i found a new way to vent my stress out to myself lmao sorry slef chatting on facebook gets the work done lol im stressed too btw as usual as always anyways uh i wna die

i just really wanna go and kms rn but also THANK FUCKING GOD I GOT OUT OF THE STE HELL HOLE i mean yeah sure theyre the ones who get more chances in college and stuff bcs the goverment and the education system only focuses on them lmao but! BUT! I WONT BE SACRIFICING MY MENTAL FORTITUDE AND HEALTH ANYMORE! ill prolly still be stressed cs duh its school but it wont be like to the extent of me fainting thank fucking deities!

my sis finally let me mess w my hair after asking for it for 5 months (cant ask mom cs sis didn't approve ugh) and i got it cut into a cute bob but haha my wavy hair isn't really cooperating w me

wow wait i just realized when i vent i miss lots of letters and then they become grammatically incorrect just ignore them lol

im so fucking stressed rn srs my sis husband aint doing anything in this house all he ever does is be addicted to his chickens and being a fucking pervert. hes the one messing the whole fucking house single handedly yet he cant even put his own socks in the laundry wtf??? while my sis is working several kilometers away ure just here laying around not even attending to ur work why the fuck r u even here then? i do all the fucking chores you dont even help at taking care of ur own child im just his aunt ffs wtf im actually gonna throw your things away at this rate how can my sister put up with ur shit? i act like a fucking house maid right now but even then they get paid. if i dont act in this house itll literally turn into a fucking dumpster! i fucking hate this shit. schools my fucking gateaway from this and ill finally be away from these trash pigs just a few more days. hold on dear self.

i wanna die so bad right now actually

3. now its my friends.

1. got into a fight w homophobic ass family cs they said the usual; being gay is a choice. it is a sin in the eyes of god. i dont know anything abt the bible cs i dont church even tho rhe church and the original bible is very different. they talk abt sins when they themselves have done worse like idk sa'd me? and that children shouldnt watch gay pageants bcs theyll think its ok to be gay. they said this while 2 of our siblings are gay with live in partners theyve been tgt w for more than 8 yrs. 
          
          2. ive got research defense later. im not finished w any activities. ive got no grade in a lot of subject. im getting dropped out of ste. next sy im on regular which is better but again how abt my shitty family? theyre the ones that wanted me to be in there in the first place and look! wow! i am failing classes and in life! no no im ok why wouldnt i be, its just the usual yk, stressed deppresive state of mine is now a natural and is a current emotion for everyday life. i cant help but wonder when did i started to think "ight lets just jump out of an overpass" whenever theres a slight problem. i just wanna die sm.

i would like to die