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This is just a rant, and for me to get things off my chest. Mostly for me to sort through my feelings.
          	
          	
          	So, the girl I like doesn't like me back and that's fine. Things haven't really changed between us. But, I realized that most of the things I do are for her and I think about her a lot in almost everything I do. It's like she is the only thing I can think about.
          	
          	I don't really want to say its love because I don't think I really understand love. But, it's kinda the only thing that feels right to express how I feel about her.
          	
          	Almost everything I do, is about her. I think about her when I do school work, thinking; "oh, I wonder if she needs help with this or with that" or "maybe her and I can have mini study sessions and spend time together". When I watch something, I think about her. I want to make her feel happy and loved, and I want to do dumb romantic things with her.  
          	
          	I'm not a touchy-feely person. I have never liked people outside of family touching me, only if I give other people hugs first, mostly close friends. I hate when people touch me, but its different with her. I actually really like it. 
          	
          	Also, I never understood why people wanted to hug others or hold hands or kiss. I couldn't see myself ever doing that with anyone. I never understood the appeal of going out on dates because I always saw it as stressful (I'm a very anxious person, who freaks out over the little things-)
          	
          	She makes me want to do those things. 
          	
          	Even though there is no way for me to ever date her I still like her, so fucking much. I don't know what to do to accept that she will never like me. Because, even if I say it's fine and I don't mind. She is on my mind every day. I'm constantly wanting to go buy her things to see her eyes light up and see how wide her smile will be. 
          	I don't know what to do, and I don't know how to make myself get over her.

Joshzilla12Foxy

@Tazrainbow your welcome
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qurple_chxcxlate

@Joshzilla12Foxy Thank you! I'm glad there's no drama as well. I think I will try to take some to sort through my feelings and then figure things out. Thank you again for trying to help me out and actually reading all of this
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Joshzilla12Foxy

@Tazrainbow well at least no drama happen. Should take sometime for you to stop having feelings for her. But maybe not idk
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qurple_chxcxlate

this message may be offensive 
This is just a rant, and for me to get things off my chest. Mostly for me to sort through my feelings.
          
          
          So, the girl I like doesn't like me back and that's fine. Things haven't really changed between us. But, I realized that most of the things I do are for her and I think about her a lot in almost everything I do. It's like she is the only thing I can think about.
          
          I don't really want to say its love because I don't think I really understand love. But, it's kinda the only thing that feels right to express how I feel about her.
          
          Almost everything I do, is about her. I think about her when I do school work, thinking; "oh, I wonder if she needs help with this or with that" or "maybe her and I can have mini study sessions and spend time together". When I watch something, I think about her. I want to make her feel happy and loved, and I want to do dumb romantic things with her.  
          
          I'm not a touchy-feely person. I have never liked people outside of family touching me, only if I give other people hugs first, mostly close friends. I hate when people touch me, but its different with her. I actually really like it. 
          
          Also, I never understood why people wanted to hug others or hold hands or kiss. I couldn't see myself ever doing that with anyone. I never understood the appeal of going out on dates because I always saw it as stressful (I'm a very anxious person, who freaks out over the little things-)
          
          She makes me want to do those things. 
          
          Even though there is no way for me to ever date her I still like her, so fucking much. I don't know what to do to accept that she will never like me. Because, even if I say it's fine and I don't mind. She is on my mind every day. I'm constantly wanting to go buy her things to see her eyes light up and see how wide her smile will be. 
          I don't know what to do, and I don't know how to make myself get over her.

Joshzilla12Foxy

@Tazrainbow your welcome
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qurple_chxcxlate

@Joshzilla12Foxy Thank you! I'm glad there's no drama as well. I think I will try to take some to sort through my feelings and then figure things out. Thank you again for trying to help me out and actually reading all of this
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Joshzilla12Foxy

@Tazrainbow well at least no drama happen. Should take sometime for you to stop having feelings for her. But maybe not idk
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qurple_chxcxlate

So,,,, if you knew someone for a long time now and you're good friends with them, and you have a crush on them. But they are somewhat dating-somewhat not dating someone( they confessed already, and going out on a date in 2 weeks, but not officially dating yet). Would you tell them you have a crush on them or stay quiet and not ruin your friendship?

qurple_chxcxlate

@Joshzilla12Foxy um,, I wish I saw this earlier, but I ended up telling her. She told me she didnt like me like that, but it went pretty well. It's not awkward either, so that's good! Thank you for the advice though!
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Joshzilla12Foxy

@Tazrainbow telling her could leave you in a awkward situation with her, since she is basically with someone already.
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qurple_chxcxlate

@Joshzilla12Foxy yeppp, idk what to do. It would be best to leave my friend alone and let her date that guy without having to worry about me. But, I also have liked her for a really long time and want her to know that I'm an option. My other friend thinks I should tell her, but I dont want to be selfish and hurt her in anyway.. so, i dont know what to do.
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Hi everyone l! Just letting you all know that I am going to rewrite my book The Impossible, that's why I have deleted it. I do not like what I was doing with it and want a chance to write it properly. 
          
          Hopefully this time the book will be good. I will publish it when I think it is good enough for you guys to read!

cherrycola4pop

@Tazrainbow  can't wait to see!
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In a depressed mood because of my exams and my family, and now I'm questioning my existence. Like,, why am I even here?? what the hell is the point of living?
          
          I know that I have a lot to be grateful for, I have great friends, a good family, good education. And so it feels unfair for me to feel like this all the time. I feel selfish. 
          
          Then I feel even worse when I get angry at my family, but at the same time, they talk about me all the time, making fun of me, talking shit about me, to my face or when they think I cant hear them.
          
          I just wish I could stop existing. That way I wouldnt feel like shit all the time or feel like I'm bothering people.
          
          
          sorry about this rant-

qurple_chxcxlate

@hopesdreams4frans I will, thank you ^^
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hopesdreams4frans

@Tazrainbow I understand it takes a while to stop think like this. And of course! Also you can message me next time you feel like this, I don't mind helping you ^^
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qurple_chxcxlate

@hopesdreams4frans thank you, but, I think it might take me a while to stop feeling like this. I do appreciate it a lot though! So, thank you, so so much. You're a great friend, I dont know what I would do without you
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