rennxiisho

Last for today, i'm easily to get the trauma huh?

Ever since i've been entered here, i'm really craved for a listener huh? Firstly, i was expressing to the wrong person that i am glad on that time i'm still on guard. But, the second one was scared me because on that time, i was enduring with really anxious situation that i'm scared my plan didn't work because my team was really used more money than other teams + extra drama that i thought i can let it slide. Unfortunately, i couldn't keep in hidden and let it slip through my mouth. I cried on that time! Why though? Why did i kept giving her hint? Why i couldn't hold my tears like i always plan to do? Idk! Because she felt comfortable with me. I thought i could get the answer to solve the problem by not telling her the whole story. Actually, each problem i faced already been solved. Maybe, she's been a good listener?

Don't you miss me? Its been month we're not seen each other through message...i.m.u

Last for today, i'm still believe i'm the second choice. Don't change the fact. With my overthinking, nothing can escape from that thought.

I'm still hung up on my past wishing to her huh..?

I'm glad to write a note time by time in here so then i can keep myself in check whether i'm changing for the better or the worst :D

Yeay, i become palapes.  Unfortunately, i don't have matching with roomate. 

New journey will begin. People around me worry that i might not going to carry on with it. But its me bro...either myself not sure how far i can go but i hope i can handle it. TABAH!!!

I want to remember CH as long as time is ticking because living my life close to you is the best thing i could ever have. I'm glad to know you, feels like i'm living beside you just by the stories you're telling, i may be overreact but your principle is what makes me feels like i wish i know you sooner so then i have a confident about what am i going to be in reality and not daydreaming. I know it's not too late for me to change because i'm still alive and god still give me chance. I wish my will still carry on, Aamiin.
          
          I know my habit about depending on others to make myself feel better is something i should stop so then i dont have to be hung up by a piece of thin thread.
          
          TQ.

Love to see the truth, hate to accept it.
          
          I keep denying what my heart say because it can cost me delusional situation.
          
          I keep wondering, 
          
          Am i living in fantasy or overthinking?
          
          In the end, the truth untold is what i am waiting for.
          
          I should stop and step out first.
          I should.