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It's so pathetic, you know? 
          When you're so madly in love
          That you crave the persons presence
          You crave their attention...
          
          Hearts aching from distance
          Minds tired from the overworking
          Emotions confused from the lack of contact
          Bodies drained from everything...
          
          But its  funny how 
          if the tables were turned
          It would probably be
          exactly the same.
          
                                                ~an aching heart♡

Ok I know I can be hard to be around and I'm probably really easy to replace but today was a really off day for me. I needed alot of help and I needed support and reassurance but I never got that. I felt like I was being replaced by the most important person in my life at the moment and it hurt bad. So I decided to post some shit and see who cared and I was so shocked to see that the people I never knew even noticed me were the ones that cared the most. They gave me a new kinda hope, one that doesn't tell me there's a better tomorrow, but rather one that says that one day it'll be better. I'm probably babbling on and on but no one really knows how much these people mean to me and to be honest I dont want them to know. Because when people know you care, they take advantage of you and that hurts like hell. I know that all too well. But now hopefully this new chapter in my life will be better than the last and if not, I know one day it will be alright. This post turned out to be longer than I thought it would be. If you've made it this far, thank you and i hope you enjoy your day/night

So.... I had my first kiss today..

I never knew someone can make you melt with just one look...❤

3am
          I can't sleep,
          My mind wont shut up,
          My thoughts are drowning me.
          
          I'm tired as hell 
          But I'd rather stay awake 
          Coz my dreams are
          Nightmares in disguise.. 
          
          I feel like crying
          But I dont think there's
          Anymore tears 
          left to come out.
          
          I'm not even suicidal anymore
          I'm just upset, I'm happy inside
          But just this one thing
          Makes me wanna cry right now...