I'm sorry, I don't think i can continue doing this. My mental health has reached the absolute lowest point its ever been at. I've been thinking about ending it. I don't think ill attempt, but the thoughts are overwhelming to the point where it's hard to continue writing and its honestly extremely difficult for me to continue with school (I mean there's only like 3 days left so that doesn't matter much anyways). And most of the time, on days without school, i can barely find a reason to get out of bed. I still do because I know my mom would hate me even more if I didn't, but it feels like I have no energy left to talk to anyone. It's getting harder to talk to the friends that I do still have.
I've made some dumb decisions over the past few weeks and my closest friends have not only cut me off, but also proceeded to get someone else to spread false rumors about me. They don't understand that I thought I was making the right decision for a certain person when I did that. I wasn't doing it for myself. I mean I shouldn't have done it, don't get me wrong, but I'm tired of all the dishonesty with the situation.
To sum it up, my depression is keeping me from writing and I'm going to be taking a break from this, Tumblr, and maybe my reddit until things hopefully start to look up.
Goodbye, and if you've read NYG before I took it down, thank you. It means the world to me.