Amber Shen

it's so sad how may facebook has been disabled and there's no way it will be recovered just like some fb users too. i had it for 6 years. i actually cried last night. i guess i should let go of it.

when you thought that something's belong to you, resembles you, a part even and days passed it feels like those weren't that special or destined to be something you will like forever. i kinda have detachment from what makes me, everythingi thought i am or should be. and it feels like i won't be returning, love it the same and completely let it go. like writing, and what i liked most. it's escaping from my heart, senses and being. i guess, things gradually happens such as unloving the once precious hobbies etc.

I hope in my next lives, I'd be a better, good person and I would live well and... safe. That's all.

I never had diary entries for months, I've been so lazy to do that as if I could let go of all the knots in my heart. I am just attending my own clown show. It’s hard, even harder to write. To hold my anxious hand.

in my dreams, the sky is boundless and beautiful, so contrary when i open my eyes.

i don't think i am a character with chapters.
          i am the air that is so dead inside the book that's so unalive. i belong to more than the definition of fiction. impossible to ever meet and hold.

should i write again
          (╯ರ ~ ರ)╯︵ ┻━┻

Happy bday to me ✨
          “ang kaarawan ay tila isang hangganan at buod ng nakalipas
          na tag-ulan
          
          bahaghari ay yayapos
          at kukulayan ang mapuputlang
          mga paa
          
          nakalipas at ang ngayong paggalaw 
          ng mga dahon ay ikaw.”

Merry Xmas ❤️