I don't know what's going on nor what's happening and I don't like it. I don't know if I did something that they didn't like or I did something wrong because they became more distant. Yesterday and today is special—well for me but I don't know if it's special for them too. I get that everyone doesn't need to use their phone or like talk to someone 24/7 but I feel like they should atleast say something. It's fine if it's a little update because atleast the person waiting knows what's happening and don't need to be worried. I really don't like what's happening right now. I really just wanna talk to them but I guess they have other plans. This is really upsetting for me because I don't know if they still want to reciprocate those feelings back to me anymore with what's happening lately. I miss them so bad and now I'm needy with their attention. I feel like a very pathetic puppy, not in a weird way but in a way that I wait so much for something even if it's a singular chat from them and if they do I'm happy again. I don't like this, I really don't. I just wanna let this out, I don't want my chest to feel heavy, I don't like that. So thank you if someone's reading this or not, I really just wanna let this out.(I don't know if they're gonna see this but if so, I hope you understand what I'm feeling and I give my Hello to you.)

Did I do something wrong? Was it my fault? Am I not good enough??? Were the things I did not good enough? I fucking can't anymore. I just can't. Every single time I try to change, something always bad happen. I fucking can't. 

Throwing up and being sick was not on my june bingo card what.

This is why I really being too happy sometimes. Someone really has to ruin it every single time.

My cousin who just got back from Germany gave me a piece of chocolate and it tasted so dang GOOD. I don't know if i can even buy it here in our country but i want more of it. T^T

Ain't no way i revised the whole dang thesis/research and when i ranted you told me YOU did EVERYTHING??? HELLO?? ARE YOU HIGH?? I LITERALLY DID HALF OF IT AND REVISED IT WHAT.

Update: we defended the Thesis/research but we need some major revisions on some chapters T^T

I swear I'm gonna cry. Why is Thesis/Research so hard? It's even harder when your groupmates are not helping. LIKE HELLO?? IT'S CALLED A GROUP BUT WHY AM I AND MIK ONLY DOING THE RESEARCH????? WHAT.

Hey babes! Thank you for reading/adding my story “dance of affliction” to your list! It means a lot and I hope you enjoyed it ^^

Does anyone have any fluff story/fanfic recommendations? I really need some at the moment. <3