R A V E N

I'm empty. Stuck. oh god what I'd do for the feeling of completeness and maybe... if I'm lucky, perhaps also a bucket of happiness? 

what if...

lost.

I feel like I'm doing something wrong. I'm constantly in this loop of pushing people away from me, from my life, from everything, when I feel like I'm getting attached. The worst part is I don't have the courage to admit that's it's my fucking fault and I'm scared shitless of the pain that I get when the people I love leave me. Maybe that's the main reason why I somehow make it my default mechanism to just let go first. It's better that way. But it hurts aloooooot. Help what should I do?

Am I the only person who loves to watch random cooking videos when hungry?? Am I weird for torturing myself?

Hey life gets supeeer boring. I should date 

I want to write a book. But I can't seem to come in terms with what motivation should be my motivation to write. Are you confused? Yah me too. Kudos