My dream is to live with my wife on a farm and grow our own food and animals. If you want that kinda life too, why aren't we married? I'm 24 anyways and this year 2022 really let me realize I love reading lesbian erotic novels/books as well as writing it because then it gives me the escape I need from reality. My advice? If your partner is African, move to Africa, buy some land, start a farm, have a few dogs or children, grow your own good, install solar panels and live peacefully with books all day every day.