"What I Taught Myself The Day You Left" - angelptrish
some nights - like this one
I find myself back in time
how fun and miserable it was
I see it all now
just so you know,
when I reminisce,
I tend to see everything for the first time again
I feel it all again
the songs we used to sing,
the memories we used to live in,
and the letters -
the letters were everything
It reminded me how I was full of hope and love
and I saw how it depresses as time passed
leaving me empty-handed, lifeless,
until I couldn't feel anything anymore
I used to give and give and give
now, with this is in my mind,
I must've lost it all
I lost me
It took a while before gaining a new me
This time, without you around
It felt foreign to me anyhow
I struggled to embrace it
I looked down on my younger self,
I could have asked her what she saw in you
That I couldn't even see now
But then again, she's me, I knew what it felt and I wouldn't dare go back in your arms again
You'll remain a memory back in time
A souvenir of both tragic and delighting story
And something in between
You're someone who broke me down and also the reason why I stood up again
To you, it's just a simple memoire
Something to remember, something to review
For me, you are why I am stronger
the way I am now
I used to give and give and give love
now, with this in my mind,
I make sure to spare some for me
So, when people leave,
I'll know I'll get by
Because I still have me,
To pour some of the love I failed to give
This time, for myself