blue.

"You were given this life because you are strong enough to live it." - David A. R. White
          
          I think that suffering wasn't shared fairly. Some people got more of it while others got less. But in the end, everyone gets a dose of it. A lot of the time, it depends on how much of it comes.
          
          You might get a really large portion really early on in life instead of it being spread out evenly throughout a lifetime, but that doesn't mark the end. Time is a fickle thing. It comes, it passes, and then everything is in the past. What you're living through now could become mere memories before you know it. If you struggle through the blockade now, just know that it will become easier afterwards. It can't last forever if you push through.
          
          I believe in you.

hello, it's been a while and it's probably gonna be another long while after i post this. i'm barely online anyway but i still thought i should announce it in case someone thinks i'm ignoring them. i don't wanna go into a lot of detail but, something bad happened last night and it's been rough, especially for my friend, me, our parents and of course, him. reality has really only hit me this morning, that this is actually real, it's not just some nightmare that i can wake up from and see that everyone i had just mentioned is happy and well. i'm scared, i really am and i just wanna know, see if things will turn out okay.. though i'm not quite sure when those answers will appear. anyway, i hope all of you are okay at least, that would be nice to hear. goodbye for now.

omg i hate finding my old comments

Xiao

h̶a̶p̶p̶y̶ ̶s̶i̶n̶g̶l̶e̶s̶ ̶a̶w̶a̶r̶e̶n̶e̶s̶s̶ ̶d̶a̶y̶   happy valentine's day, have a nice day <3

You were my first real reader
          
          Someone who commented and interacted with me after a year of not having an online presence
          
          I got hope from you that I could meet more people and make new friends
          
          You're so kind and nice and it's really amazing that people like you still exist
          
          So thank you <3 thank you for everything

wow i just got locked out of my house with my dog and no one was home to unlock the door and apparently they moved the key and i never knew so it took me almost 25 minutes to get in. this was an experience..

ew i have to go back to school in person two days every week. i'm going to be so bad at socializing with other people- 

Happy New Year everyone!~ i only have an hour left until midnight so it'll be 2021 for me soon. hopefully it'll be a decent new year for all of us.
          
           (please i sound so sappy, just try to brush over that i'm already gonna regret posting this lmao)
          
          2020 was a shit year, let's all admit it, like i'm seriously ending this year with a panic attack and homework so yeah, pretty shitty year. I'm sure all of us had some good moments though, like getting into something new or learning something about yourself. 
          
          i jumped around and back into many fandoms this year and honestly that's been really fun, i've met so many great people through all of those and i'm still meeting more. i really appreciate everyone i've had a good laugh or conversation with. oh and speaking of conversations, i learned that i suck at in real life ones, like damn...i'm hella awkward but lets not get into that.
          
          also i'm honestly curious did anyone actually read what i said, if you did...
          hello, i hope you're doing well.
          
          anyways my final words are me cursing this year. once again Happy New Year.  2021 better be great. 
          
          I hate you 2020. <3

it's my birthday so i won't be on too much today cause i have plans, sorry!