redinkblood

i cant sleep.....thinking about those kisses....they way he laughed when i looked at him while he was day dreaming.....the way he held me..... that sweet little bit that i got on the weekends and on summer days....
          I miss him....
          I miss him like a lot....
          I miss him more than i could miss Julian 
          Maybe its because i know him....ive seen him....ive loved him...
          Maybe because he's not an online friend or lover
          Maybe because he was so real.....
          Maybe because he LIED to me
          -Sep. 8. 19

curse my boyfriend.... he made me sleep in... cause i stayed up thinking about him.... fuck
          No one
          not a single soul
          Tyler :thats a bit homosexual
          Trinity's brother: Thats a bit gay

   -Talk about boxers and women's underwear- 
                                          Be Aware
          
          
          
          i've hid them from her for so long.... my boxers are the only thing that makes me feel like a true man even if i have women's underwear on bottom behind, i love my boxers...

and cry

im gonna puke

you know that you're being mentally abused after you've let your mum buy you a skirt you HATE just to not get yelled at in front of people. Also when you grit your teeth and try to wear it for your Mum to school on picture day when you're FTM TRANS AND A GUY! 

its one of those moments thats got your name written all over it, ya know that if i had just one wish, it'd be that you didnt have to miss this.... you should be here...

"Round and around and around they go... will it end nobody knows"

"the tears keep flowing", "the bullet keeps on going", "wishing it was his hand he was holdin'", "Friends stopped checking in on the phone", "Every birthday that he'll never see" "Til every heart left to break is broken", "leaving one by one", "Mommas aint supposed to bury their sons"

"to get a little southbound" "small spring break, every weekend round this place" "All the boys trying to catch the eye of all the pretty girls walking by" "Southbound"