redwolftrash

posted a long fückin poem in my poetry book

Meat-cat

you should write more regular show hgvhuijnb
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          specifically benpop hehe

redwolftrash

@Meat-cat i have a benpops fanfic from my middle school days, but it's very triggering as i wrote it based off of a headcanon i had so i'm not sure if i want to finish transcribing it (i wrote it in the back of my science notebook) or post it at all (it kinda romanticizes s/h so i'd prefer to show it to someone, see what they think, and/or rewrite it accordingly).
            
            i've dealt with s/h now, but when i was 13 (when i wrote the fanfic) i didn't really know what s/h was besides "person is sad so they sl!t their wr!sts" so i treated it as that. i can send you the transcript in DMs if you want via google docs or smth if you're interested though!
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redwolftrash

if you came here from that fifth harmony b!tch's nasty @ss fanfic, i am more than happy to f!cking obliterate you for condoning this nasty @ss sh!t.
          
          reminder that i cannot f!cking stand ddlg it's so f!cking gross. it's disgusting and insulting to the following groups:
          
          - autistic people (ableist kink tingz! people in ddlg tend to copy autistic stimming behaviors to appear more childlike and in doing so s!xualize something most autistic people do)
          - CSA survivors and victims (s!xualizes CSA)
          - incest survivors and victims (s!xualizes incest)
          - the BDSM community (makes them look delegitimized)
          - people who need to wear adult diapers (s!xualizes adult diapers)
          - babies, toddlers, and chilren (s!xualizing them via their clothing, their behavior, the items they use, how they talk and act)
          - fathers and daughters (people have literally attested online to saying that their dads are uncomfortable with being called daddy anymore bc of ddlg becoming more well known)
          - AGE REGRESSORS!!! they are so f!cking stigmatized as is by neurotypical people, people who refuse to try understanding the reasons behind it online, and therapists/psychs who don't understand it and won't do research on it. ddlg c!nts try to disguise as ageres in order to infiltrate their communities and then post nsfw content and crosstag (mainly on tumblr and instagram) to tags meant to be safe for age regressed people.
          
          this is a topic i feel strongly about as i used to be an age regressor and caregiver, and have had 2 age regressors of my own.
          
          ddlg is one of the main reasons i stopped regressing -- i no longer felt safe in my online community, and people in ddlg were CONSTANTLY trying to interact with me. it would put me out of my headspace consistently. i ended up making that account into my second vent because i stopped regressing and when i do regress, if ever, it's extremely painful as my regressed self misses his old caregiver who i don't speak to due to personal conflicts.

redwolftrash

nobody: what happened to most of your fics?
          me, crying and writing agere fanfiction drafts i’m too scared to publish: serendipity seems like a stupid idea to me now, half the stuff i wrote was meant to be informational from 3 years ago has really shitty grammar i have to fix, and i’m scared of potentially having to rewrite the pops fic and everyone hating it now.

redwolftrash

also: i deleted skeleton war (AKA freddie becomes undead for halloween) and st.ambrose’s bc 1) i made it purely for halloween and i didn’t want to make it a series but me stupid and 2) mental
          institutions and the like really trigger my anxiety!!! yeah i hate it.