[ identity crisis ]

Hey, 
          Alles Gute zum Geburtstag Opa 
          
          Ich hab dein Geschenk auf meinem Schreibtisch liegen, ich hab mir echt Mühe gegeben damit du etwas hast mit dem du an mich denken kannst. 
          
          Weißt du, heute vor einem Jahr fing die Scheiße an. Ich wollte dir gratulieren und Oma hat geweint ...
          
          I love you grandpa, happy birthday <3 

Hey, 
          how you're doing? 

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          Cavetown - This Is Home 
          
          >> Are you dead? 
          Sometimes I think I'm dead
          'Cause I can feel ghosts and ghouls wrapping my head
          But I don't wanna fall asleep just yet <<
          
          time: 04:13 am

i want to throw a cup of tea on the wall in my room until it broke 
          i want to scream and cry until my tears are gone
          i want to hide and sob until i can't anymore 
          
          but i can not
          
          i can't throw a cup because my strength is gone
          i can't cry because my tears are gone
          i can't hide and sob because you need me
          
          maybe for the last time

I wonder about will anyone ever read my books?
          Will anyone ever find this profile?
          Will anyone ever notice me? 

sometimes life sucks and you just wonder why? 
          and sometimes you do something crazy and the world looks colourful again