Happy New Year’s Eve and per usual here is my little end of the year reflect paragraph!
This year I saw the saddest and the happiest side of me. The first 6 months of the year I was not in a good mindset, experiencing trauma, moving back home, finding out rumors being spread about me during the DCP, being threatened by my brother, parent issues, leaving an unhealthy friendship I spent YEARS trying to keep, losing friends, being played, etc etc.
however gone all through this stuff I realized it wasn’t the end of the world, I picked my arse up and went back on my meds, went to therapy as I have been avoiding, took care of myself and CHOSE myself for once, I stopped caring what others thought, cus at the end of the day I’m stuck with me, I let myself be okay with being alone, but honestly I wasn’t even alone, I chose friends who cared about my wellbeing, I stopped talking about people, I learned to forgive and learned to not expect apologies, I forgave myself instead. I got back into doing what I love most and things that used to send me into a spiral, those are minor things now and I do have bad days but I don’t let it effect me long term. I’ve learned to live with bad days and not let it feel like the end of the world.
I got accepted back into the Disney college program and got my dream role, made so many new friends this year and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
This year has given me a lot of character development and I’m excited to see what the new year brings!