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hey precious xxx come around soon i miss u 

Okay so hey. Never thought I’d come on here ever again, but recently I’ve been having dreams about being in love with a boy and my mind keeps going back to Lukas. It’s so weird though because it’s been years since I’ve talked to him and I don’t know why my mind is on that again but ??? Idek I just want a love like that again. 
          
          Quick update though: I’m in college now (: it’s going really rough but I’m enjoying it. I guess I’ve grown and matured a lot. But somethings haven’t changed. I still love deeply and laugh all the time and I still sing obnoxiously loud while cooking. I don’t really remember who I was two years ago, but I guess that’s part of growing up. 
          
          Anyway, if any of you guys are still around, say hey (: 
          
          Te quiero 
          Romeo 

How many of you are still here ? 

i wish you never left me 

i’ve been heartbroken for a year wow

it’s been a month 

“i’m here for you whenever you need me”

nothing gold can stay. that poem has always been my favorite which is a bit ironic because you were my gold. i thought we would have forever together. forever and more and that we would always be there for each other. you are my everything and i've said this so many times before but it's true. i meant it when i said that you were my only friend. you have been for over a year even though it's been rocky and we both have a habit of disappearing.i just feel- i don't know. is this what heartbreak feels like? i feel so broken and crushed and everything all at once. it feels like you've died or something but worse because even though i know you didn't, it feels like you chose to leave me.  i know that's not true though and i wish you would have tried to talk to me instead of just going. the two most important people in my life are gone just like that. so who do you talk to when your best friend leaves? who do you call at three am and cry to ?? who do you ask to hold you until it gets better?? there's no one here make it better and now there's this pounding in my head and it's getting worse.  like there's this huge hand squeezing my temple. when you were gone, i would read all of our messages until you came back, and i can't do that anymore. they're all deleted. i don't know what i'm going to do. i don't know how to feel better. maybe one day we'll meet again. maybe i'm dreaming and when i wake up you'll be here. maybe you'll come back. don't forget me lukas. te amo.

come back to me

come back