hey guys.
i know it's been a really long time and i know a lot of you have been waiting for an update. i genuinely want to write but i've been stuck in this spiral i can't seem to pull myself out of, no matter how hard i try. i don't usually talk about my problems publicly because i used to think it wasn't something i needed to share. but after losing two of my closest family members last year, it got really hard for me. i thought i was slowly getting through it, and 2026 might not be as heavy as 2025 but then it happened again. five months into this year and two more people from my fam are gone. it's like the moment i start to surface from one grief, i get pulled back under.
i want to write. i open the document, i reread what i've written, and sometimes i wonder why happiness feels so convincing in fiction when we can't seem to hold on to it in real life. and i end up missing them all over again without even meaning to. i don't always have the words to explain what that feels like, which is kind of ironic given that i'm a writer (lol sorry if this feels like a lot to read through, but i couldn't keep sitting on it either. i think u all should know why i'm not active as before :) )
what i do want to say is this. Raabta will be completed. i don't know when exactly but it will be. i'm not here and say "update next week" or promise "double updates" or yada yada because that's not where i am right now and i'd rather be honest than give you something empty.
so that's where i'm at rn.
and to those who've been cursing and calling me 'lazy' or 'ignorant' or whatever else, i really do mean this kindly but you're welcome to leave. i don't owe you anything. no one's paying me to write this story. i write it for myself and for the people who actually care about it. that's always been enough for me.
thank you for reading my rant
have a nice day :)
— rei.
