Strife

I may have dropped my broken love for you both, but that doesn't particularly mean I don't like you either, I'm figuring you both are old enough to make your own decisions and I'm going to finally take the step I hesitated too for many years of my life. — though I expect nothing from you both, I still want you both to do good, not bad, just good. Though I won't be the one to pick you up when you fall, for myself, I have plans for my own life

sometimes I wish I can feel emotions normally, I wish I could feel normal pain but I physically stop myself because I don't want to lose whatever this is, it helps me, I admit it really helps me, I live better knowing I have no one to worry about, I live better knowing I don't have to take time out of my day to deal with them, I live better knowing apathy decays half of my heart

I can't control my feelings, I can't help falling into apathy and nothingness, I can't feel anything when you say you got hurt, I can't feel anything when you comfort me, I can't feel anything, I can't feel minor pain, I can't feel when you compliment me, I can't feel anything when you insult me, I can't feel anything I JUST CAN'T 

and when I found an old song from my past, a certain part resembled your melody, though it wasn't the same, I felt my heart warm up, just the bare thought of you returning TO ME. Is already enough to make me happy, you touched my heart with a bewitching intent and there on, I was cursed to follow but it's all fine by me, for you, my love is already worth it. 

you were the song I set my life for, at nights, I hear your voice, I hear that same melody you enchanted me with. I can't lie, I have passionate feelings for you — My heart continues to be fooled, believing I found you that one time, heart ached, but I still had hope I'd find you

has nobody ever saved you? when I lost you that day, I remember you as a beautiful sound, though you spoke no less then Ah's and Da's, you still manage tie me closer, my hope will never falter for you