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was @voided_red changed to @retro_red

also ill be 24 this month! probably ancient to some of you and according to netflix both the shows i grew up on and i are “retro”. apparently things that are atleast 20+ years old are considered retro. learned that, ty google.

its technically today ( its 2 am ) but im getting a ps5! after three years of watching and waiting im finally getting one AND its on sale, mind you its only a 10% sale but $50 is a lot babes.

i feel like my whole 2023 so far is just some shitty wattpad angst fic i wouldve written 10 years ago.

update on life, dont know if anybody is even reading these. uhh, we put rae down june 2nd. she got to the vet about 2:45 and by 3:10 she was gone, i lost it and i still cry sometimes. i dont dream often but i had taken a nap yesterday on the couch upstairs and i had a dream rae had rested her head on me, it was sort of a “hey im gone but you’ll be okay” kind of a feeling, i woke up from said dream crying and hyperventilating. oh also my step grandma has brain and lung cancer.. stage 4. shes doing radiation for the time being and doing well but we’re all afraid that when she starts doing chemo its just going to be watching her become frail and tired. how do i do this anymore?

so life updates. very grim so if you dont like grim please dont read further, ty. okay so my grandpa who i was taking care of since beginning of november passed away april 23rd so now a month ago and i still cry pretty hard about it and have breakdowns so often. uh now tomorrow my great grandpa whos 88 found out rhat his constant blood loss problems were due to a cancerous tumor in his colon and he goes to the cancer center in our area to see if he’s eligible to do chemo i believe. also as a triple threat to my mental health and a tribute to how well 2023 has gone, my grandmas dog who has been in my life for the past 13 years will most likely have to be put down at somepoint within the next couple of weeks and i dont know how much more of this i can truly take you guys. heres to hoping my great grandpa can get treatment and live happily for a few more years and that i can cope healthily with the loss of raelyn if it comes to having to put her down.

been on here a whole decade, makes me feel old.

okay so im stupid and just got back into wattpad for and unknown amount of time but why rhe fuck is everyones pfp square instead of the usual circle. this shit looks so nasty on my profile when i finally get it done. is it just the latest update or what?

also.. happy late spooky month ! hope yall get your costumes together or stuff yourself w candy + whatever else yall do. i know ill be sitting home w my ghostface mask and some candy corn binge watching 80’s & 90’s horrors.

im back after atleast a few months of not being here and im living my best life on tumblr tbh. might not be very active but ill keep checking in until this app dies or i die lmao.