am i making the right thing still? i feel like i lost myself for a very long time now. i don't want to complain; i want to be mature when i face it. but sometimes, or perhaps most of the moments, i feel so little. And feeling that way just proves that i am really not so mature yet. I should consider those moments as lessons,, right? Yes. I must think only positively. but what if i shouldn't be? what if it's a sign that i am not going to be happy anytime soon, what if it does not get better at the end of the day? am i in the right place still?