rianztiexoL
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I'm sorry that i didn't update for a long time, honestly speaking I've been having a hard time not physically but mentally to the stage that i wanted to give up everything and leave everything. It was hard for me to keep my smile on pretending that i was fine because there's no one that understand me they just thinking and care about their own feeling without thinking that i have feeling too that i can feel hurt just like them.there's really no one that can just hug me and say that everything gonna be alright and that i was not alone. And today,this morning i heard the news about moonbin(member of ASTRO)passing,this really got me feeling down the entire day. I really wanted to cry but i cannot show my tears to other. The reason why i turn to BL,KPOP and Wattpad is because i need a comfort and i was not mentally stable. But people just don't understand they mock me for liking BL they look at me with disgust like i was a piece of shit that need to be removed from this world.
iamhell1503
@rianztiexoL I think it is okay to feel suffocated... Because I know I in reality there is no one with whom we can share our true feeling. I also have been like this for a long time and still there comes moments in daily life where I feel like why am I even alive, no one cares... But you know I think somewhere in this this world there will be another person who is feeling exactly like this. And when I think about this, I feel like I don't want that person to feel this way and give up on life. So if I want this for someone else, why I can't want the same for me I know it us hard to live like this but that is the best we can do by not giving up. I don't know if it is making sense, I just said what I was feeling after listening to you. I just want to say, if it is hard, just cry, if not in front of someone then alone. It is okay to be alone even in your darkest moment. Just go on a beach or a drive alone, bearth in and breath out and forget about that it would be nice if someone would be there with you at that moment. You are precious to your own self. ❤❤❤
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