I'm most of a loner,,, most of the times i like to be alone.. well  i have faced too muchh of pain.. n most of tyms it ws bcoz of my lovee... i sufferd from bullemia for 3 monthss.. all bcoz of hurt.. i nvr said this 2 my parents.. mny of my frnds dsnt knww too.. just 2 or 3 of thm knew.. allthough i kept it a secret.. alwys wished to gt better .. n then i keeped patience n thn i got better.. probably god didnt wanted mee to die this earlyy.. cause wanted me to suffer more.. still suffering actuallyy.. Bullemia taught me to be myself againn... i didnt knw myslf this better . like  i do noww...n trust me whn i say thiss i had this serious kind of sickness.. those who knw wht bullemia iss .. good fr themm.. bt trust it ws nt bcoz i was afraid of thts whhyy.. its jst coz hw tierd n hlpless  or the unwanted feeling i got.. my parents are like every parents ,, no hate towards them .. i ove them they love me too .. its just the city lights left a effect on me too baadd  .. is it right to talk about all this in 13 .. or 14 frm 2day..? myy birrthdy today 17th oct.. n i can't get any unluckier anymore..  i came to knw my granaunt passed away 2dy at 5 in evenin.. i'm thinkin about my grand dad .. whom left over in my home town.. he maybe is feeelin horrible.. soo this is mee guys .. betrayed.. or ditched .. or overall u can sayy refused.. i hate my life.. so mchh..