ringthebelle_

Hellooo po! Miss ko na si Naxus and Ravian. Matutuloy pa po ba ang story? 

          
          Wahhh! Finally, after three years of searching for your Wattpad account, I’ve found it! 
          
          Hello there, author! I’ve been a fan of Xythos and Calista for a long time since it’s the first story I finished reading on Wattpad. I’ve been searching for your story for so long, but I forgot both the title and your username . But now that I’ve found it again, I’m so happy! I’m going to reread their story right away like fr 
          
          
          

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          he wants to borrow money from me so he could buy a new phone for himself.
          
          i am okay with lending him money but he already borrowed money from me before. around may, he borrowed money to buy juice for his vape. he borrowed again last june, for his juice again. he borrowed around 1.6k from me but only paid 500.
          
          and then he borrowed money again this august to buy a new vape device worth 2k. he only paid me 400.
          
          and now he wants to borrow another 2k for his phone. as much as i want to lend him money, i think he is still irresponsible in handling his finances. he pays a little amount of what he borrowed and then delays paying the remaining balance until we’ve both forgotten how much he owes me.
          
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who am i to you without my money?
          
          i thought he was trying to change. i thought he was trying to make up for his past mistakes by being the boyfriend that i need.
          
          i guess i was wrong.
          
          the past days, he has been consistent with the sweet messages. he has been consistent with his words and actions that i thought he was really making up to me.
          
          i almost believed that he could be the man of my dreams. i was already thinking about my future with him. i know that between us, i am more privileged. i earn more than him. so i’ve already accepted my fate if i end up with him– that i’ll never live a princess-like life with him. very different from the kind of life that gabe would surely give me. yet, i chose to stay and believe that money won’t be an issue here.
          
          i already accepted the fact that i might be the provider in our future family. that for our family to be well-off, more than half of what i make goes to our family. that i might be the one who will support him, considering the little money he makes. 
          
          it was okay with me.
          
          but today, he showed his true colors.
          
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can love be learned?
          
          i like his company. i am comfortable with him around. i can goof around when i’m with him, i can be myself when i am with him. everything around us– our goals, families, timelines– they’re all in sync.
          
          i am not afraid of complaining, of having confrontations with him during bad days.
          
          there are days when i feel very much in love with him, but there are also days when i am still looking for someone else, longing for a different person, even when i am with him.
          
          i still think about someone else. a huge part of my heart still belongs to someone else even if i am already with him.
          
          so, if this isn’t love, then what am i feeling for him?

i miss receiving handwritten letters.
          
          you used to write letters for me, gabe.
          
          and even if we are no longer together, i still keep the letters with me. 
          
          i know that you didn’t like writing and expressing your feelings through words is not really your thing. but you tried. i miss reading your thoughts about me, about us. if only i knew that i would no longer be receiving letters from you again, then i should’ve asked for more letters in the last 2 years we were together.
          
          i’m sorry for leaving. i’m sorry for abandoning you just like that. i’m sorry for not giving you a proper goodbye, and for not keeping my promise that i will never leave.
          
          i miss you. so much.

i promised you i’d write our story and have it published here as one of my books.
          
          but i couldn’t write it. i don’t have the courage to write it because i refuse to believe that it just ended that way.
          
          i miss you.
          
          so much.
          
          please, universe. do something.

i remember telling you before that i like being alone.
          
          solitude brings me peace and calm. i didn’t mind spending my time alone because it comforts me, until the day i lost you.
          
          i got scared of being alone because i couldn’t help but think about you. your face, gabe, would always flash before my eyes. i can’t help but think about our good times together. 
          
          and then i’d have to remind myself again of the things you did to hurt me to make myself hate you again. because deep in my heart, i know i couldn’t resent someone as good and pure as you. you may have done me wrong before, but they do not compare to the goodness you have shown me for the past 8 years.
          
          until now, the guilt hunts me. i sometimes think about what we could’ve been talking about or doing together today, if only i didn’t give up on us. where could you have taken me out for our date? what food could we have tried eating this time?
          
          i miss you, gabe.
          
          always.

the number 26 would always have a significant meaning to me. tomorrow could’ve been another day of celebration for us, but things weren’t just meant for us, i guess?
          
          believe me, i tried. i tried to endure my longing for affection. i tried to extend my patience, hoping that one day, you’ll return the same energy i’ve been giving you for the past 8 years.
          
          it was never an easy decision to end things with you. i don’t know if, in the future, i’ll regret giving up on us. i was more at peace when i was with you. but peace won’t suffice because i need love– an unconditional love.
          
          i took a risk by trying it out with someone. am i happy? yes. i feel so loved. i feel needed. i am his priority. but i’m also scared because things are just too good to be true. i’m scared that maybe one day, karma will hunt me for hurting you, for leaving you.
          
          gabe, you will always be in my heart. i could not even throw away the letters you wrote me. your shirts are still in my cabinet. the gifts you gave me, i still have them. i could never not care for you because you will always be the man that i first loved. you will always be my best friend.
          
          you will always be “that man” no one can ever replace in my life. you will always be my great love.
          
          till we meet again, my love.

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