ringthebelle_

Hellooo po! Miss ko na si Naxus and Ravian. Matutuloy pa po ba ang story? 

          
          Wahhh! Finally, after three years of searching for your Wattpad account, I’ve found it! 
          
          Hello there, author! I’ve been a fan of Xythos and Calista for a long time since it’s the first story I finished reading on Wattpad. I’ve been searching for your story for so long, but I forgot both the title and your username . But now that I’ve found it again, I’m so happy! I’m going to reread their story right away like fr 
          
          
          

cant rant on my other soc meds because he has access to them.
          
          wattpad’s the only safe space i got here.

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          nakakairita lang coz why can’t he, for once, stop showing off. he has nothing to show off in the first place!
          
          i got him his job. i got him his phone. the pants, shoes, socks, briefs, shirts he’s wearing i got them all for him. i literally am raising him. 
          
          so imagine na lang the doom that awaits me if he loses the job that i got for him. who’s gonna provide for us, syempre ako!
          
          why cant he just fucking grow up? hindi ba niya kayang hindi makita family niya roon nang ilang buwan?
          
          isa pa ‘yang pamangkin niya. i hate that kid so much. imagine hearing from him na siya ang magsusustento sa bata? that kid has his own parents! imbes na asikasuhin niya future namin and save up for our future kid/s, hindi! his mind is elsewhere.
          
          palibhasa he wants to seem like he is the savior of his family. he wants to redeem himself.
          
          sorry to burst your bubble but you’ll never redeem yourself. i made you. there’s nothing to redeem.

ranting here again.
          
          so they have a family occasion this sep 28, saturday. it’s his stepdad’s 70th birthday and he wants to go home to batangas to celebrate with them.
          
          i have no problem with him going home if it wont affect his work.
          
          he cant file leaves on weekends. he’s already used two restdays last week because he was sick. and he’s not yet regularized at work so he’s still under evaluation. but he still insists to go home.
          
          how many times do i have to tell him that he cant because he has work? sis, if he loses his job, i’ll shoulder all our expenses in our apartment. he also used my credit card and he has to pay me 3.1k every month until sep 2025. how’s he gonna pay all that if he fucking loses his job?
          
          knowing him, hindi naman talaga niya naisipan umuwi. he just wants to boast to everyone in our province na may work na siya. and probably meet his jologs and bad influence friends to show off his new phone which i got for him. imagine, everything he has now, they’re all from me.
          
          anong lugi ko na lang talaga di ba if he cant even keep his job?
          
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          kaya pala a lot of people are telling me na i should think so hard muna before i proceed with this guy.
          
          at the beginning, he was very fine. pero now, oh my gosh. it felt like i was given a love potion haha.
          
          i honestly cant imagine how we are gonna be in the near future. he doesnt even have a savings. and between us, i’ve got a better salary. so mukhang ako ang provider ng family.
          
          i even wash his clothes. imagine my shift starts from 6 am to 3 pm. i get home by 4:30 pm and imbes na nakakapahinga ako, i have to wash his clothes pa.
          
          if only i could bring back time, i’d really go back to gabe. i hate it here. nasusuka ako sa pandidiri.

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          our families arranged the marriage and the elders have been talking already. so it’s hard to get out of this relationship especially when the families are already so invested and involved.
          
          another thing why i cant get out of here was because i got pride too. isipin mo naman the downgrade. from someone who’s finished college, hygienic, 5’11, meticulous, bookworm, and rich, i downgraded to a college drop, 5’6, immature, gamer, unhygienic, and penniless man.
          
          i cant even introduce him to my friends yet because what would they say about me? even sa malls, very probinsyano. i have to air this out because it really frustrates me.
          
          akala ko by bringing him here to manila, maadapt niya yung lifestyle but no. i hate his accent (batangueño), his jologs fashion, his typings very jejemon, and his Facebook shares kadiri.
          
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update.
          
          he used my credit line to purchase the phone. he already paid the 1k out of the 2k that he borrowed for the vape.
          
          honestly, i’m scared because the installment is for a year hahaha and i dont even know if we’ll still be together a year from yesterday. like what happens if we break up? is he also gonna run away from the credit card bill?
          
          anyway, so he’s got the phone now. he said thank you and i love you. fine. 
          
          but just this morning i saw him liking a page of a girl. ang pangit sobra. idk why he likes ugly women (except me, duh). so i asked him about it and he said “napindot lang”.
          
          honestly, i’m tired of all his excuses haha. so im not gonna be surprised anymore if he cheats haha. parang ayon lang naman talaga yung expected ng mga tao from him because he’s always been like that. a fucking cheater.
          
          pls dont get confused. ayaw ko na rin naman. i’d rather get back with my ex than stay with this guy. kaso our families kind of arranged our marriage already, and we’re living together now. 
          
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          i could be the most selfless with love, but i am the most selfish person with money.
          
          i really believe that one should live within his means.
          
          i could never tolerate what he’s doing. does he think i have unlimited cash to give him? does he think i only work to give him money? 
          
          what about my personal needs and wants? what about the things that i want to buy for myself too?
          
          so, nope. i’ve decided to control the situation while i can. i’ll get the 2k that he borrowed for his vape device and then that would be it.
          
          sorry, not sorry.

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          again, there won’t be any problems with me with lending him money as long as he knows how to pay.
          
          but based on my previous experiences with him, i’ve suddenly realized that he might be staying with me only because he needs me.
          
          i have money and he knows that. he lives in a decent apartment and has access to fast Internet because of me. he got a job because of me. 
          
          he’s nothing without me and he knows that.
          
          and now that he needs something from me again, and i declined to give him what he wants by giving an excuse that i have to send my sisters their allowances, he suddenly grew cold.
          
          and i don’t really care at all anymore.
          
          also, i noticed that he likes boasting his money and work to his family. if he makes 8k this cut off, he promised to give them 5k, leaving him with only 3k.
          
          go ahead, provide for your family. 
          
          but he knows that 3k won’t be enough for him so he’d ask money from me haha.
          
          he wants his family to believe that he’s doing well and he’s well-off here. if only they know the truth.
          
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