popping pills and pushing my overdose.
who says you get immune to heartaches?
They were never tablets that the body accepts
My feet are turning cold
In summer time and further so
My body hasn't registered it's lesson.
The practice and soft kisses, ah jinx
I am stuck again.
I flirt and wink
But can't you tell apart this facade
What do you call an idiot who doesn't leave.
Who doesn't learn
Or never understood
Tell me for it's an answer I cannot see
I get your message, a notification afloat
But tears stain my the pillowcase
tears rolling down heaven's doors
Did god know that the heart gets heavy?
For my eyes open like the doors of a damn
When the crack appears
It floods down like a river and rainstorm under a lamp
Each passing night I pop my pills
I pray to the universe to let me sink
for if I stay awake, I might choke
If I'm awake, I won't sleep a wink.
Dear universe forgive me
a child's cry
my soul takes flight in dreams
the only place where I can exist
And there's no You, in I.