RK

Beautiful people: Hi!! My goodness it's been a while! 
          
          SOME Life updates; I started college! My gpa is in the gutter (2.3). I have never failed at academics this hard before. Seriously, I am so burnt out and full of shame. But anyways, I am trying to get my life together and do better (I need to get that GPA up as one of my goals is med school in the future and you can't apply without a >3.7 gpa). It's not even that the material is hard, I just procrastinate all my work and don't turn things in. I can't cram the night before like I did in high school. My therapist (yes, I started going to therapy, it IS that serious folks!) said that this is actually common for unmedicated women with ADHD, where the study strategies they used in hs would let them procrastinate and they could still succeed, but that apparently does not fly in college with all these months-long research projects and large amounts of work. #themoreyouknow. Anyways, so I am gonna try to see if medication will help me, and I'll let yall know. I failed my driving test today, so I can't get my license. Anyways, I'm rewriting some of my old fics, as I feel like my writing is getting a bit better. I'm gonna start grinding out my chapters on a better schedule, as I feel like it will help keep me level and avoid burnout. Writing is something I genuinely enjoy, unlike college, so that's my reasoning as to why it might help w burnout idk?
          The premed culture is so TOXIC and FUCKING COMPETITIVE AS FUCK, and I can't stop comparing myself to every single person around me like, what's her gpa, is she volunteering, I wonder what his mcat score was (I haven't even taken the MCAT yet, I'm a first year), I wonder if he's doing research, how many clinical hours do they have, I FUCKING HATE THIS. Everyone is trying to get your stats to compare themselves to you too, and its so obvious, like "RK, what's your GPA right now?" I'm not going to tell you that? That's private? Don't ask someone that tf?? 
          Anyways, enjoy new ch!

Beautiful People: My finals for the second semester are over. Junior year is done in a week. I'll update when my grades come in, but I finally have time to WRITE again. Over the summer, I'll probably be doing a lot of studying, both for academic decathlon (I'm basically Spiderman) and SATs, but I promise I'll finally be publishing all my books.

Beautiful people: Finals are over (I finished mine on Friday). Let us take a moment to relax, and be grateful to ourselves and our bodies for carrying us through this school year. I'm taking a day to publish some House Lestrange and X-men The Element chapters, and something new that I'm gonna announce soon

Beautiful people: I GOT HIGHER THAN THE SWEATY AP PHYSICS GUY ON MY EXAM!!! I STILL GOT A BAD GRADE!! BUT! I! GOT! HIGHER! THAN! HE! DID!

I'm pretty much just using this as a journal now, but I'm super sick so enjoy another chapter early

Update:
          AP Physics guy got a higher quiz score than me and he's been bragging ab it. Don't worry everyone, I'm retaking this stupid quiz and I'm going to smash it in his stupid, terrible, sweaty, ugly face :)

Update on the AP Physics guy:
          Today he said he thought Morocco was a city in Africa, and when I informed him it was a country, he said 'are you sure'.   BRO YES I'M SURE????? 
          
          Anyway, AP Physics is getting more difficult, so instead of studying, I posted 1 big chapter and a mini chapter for House Lestrange, and I should be finished with another chapter of The Element this Sunday :)

OMG I’m loving house lestrange so farrrrr 

IK it's late but I posted chapter 4, hope you like it