robin_idk_rah

hiya! Thank you so much to interacting w/ my au Drown In Roses!! :D
          
          im just going to say, that im currently rewriting some of the earlier chapters from when i had started so I'd say please bear with it when beginning to read :c So I'd say the best chapter to start is chapter 9 or 10!! The first 8 isnt as important, but chapter 5 is worth reading imo.
          
          SORRY IF IM CONFUSING, THATS JUST HOW I AM

You alive or nah

Reminder if u bring any beef up on my acc it's getting deleted <3
          
          Especially when u can message me on anything else like 
          
          And yeah this is targeted
          
          I'm pissed rn so fuck off to the ppl who it's targeted to bc yk who u are <3

Im sick in the head but its okay bc im just a lil guy

Okay I js talked to him for 2 straight hours. Based off the convo, I think he might have a HINT of feelings for me.
          
          Either way im not able to move on, so I'll just stay delusional. If I don't I'll prolly go into a depressive episode again so yeahhhh...

He just told me his crush rejected him.
          
          
          I really did never have a chance.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          What's the point in living if I'm not loved.

Can my brain stop torturing me?????
          
          I had a nightmare first, a rlly bad one, which already shook me up and made me sensitive.
          
          Then I try get sleep again, and guess what?
          
          I get the most realistic dream ever, where I got everything I wanted.
          
          It wasn't even much.
          
          It was when I was an adult. I had transitioned.
          I had a shitty apartment looking out over a city. It was really nice.
          But the most important thing was he was there. I don't even have a CRUSH anymore, istg I'm fucking in love with this guy. I could talk about him for days.
          But anyways.
          But then I got exactly what made the dream awful.
          He said he loved me. That he loved me the same way I love him. Just as much.
          And just as I replied.
          I fucking woke up.
          
          And now I feel stupid and hurt.
          I had to deal with getting everything I wanted, just for it to be fake. Now I have to remember it's never going to happen. It was fake. And he'll never love me back. I'm just going to have to deal with getting it all for a while, and then nothing. Fucking nothing.
          
          Fml bro.

I'm going insane bro
          
          INSANE
          
          IMA RAMBLE SO YES. OKAY.
          
          
          
          
          Guys is it only a "crush" when my entire life revolves around them
          Also we gen act like a couple which we both admit
          But idk if it's js a strong platonic bond or he has feelings too like
          Fml bro
          Also #mixedsignals
          Choose a side bro fmllllllll
          
          PLEASE LIKE
          
          This is so chuddy 
          
          I'm so lonely but no matter how much I try I can't move on so I can't like just get over it and try with someone else
          Sobs
          
          I love him sm omlllll he gen means everything to me
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I really hope he loves me too.

When someone tries to ragebait me
          But I don't fall for it
          
          Because the reason they ragebaited me
          Was that I 
          Was secretly the one ragebaiting them all along

I CAME OUT TO MY MOM AS TRANS SHE ACCEPTS ME OML YAYAYAYYAY