So my previous posting was marked as 'offensive'. Therefore, I will redo it with blanked out swear words.
This message is for everyone struggling with mental illness. Specifically for those who are so low they can no longer see any good.
I was there. I have struggled with depression and anxiety for as long I can remember. However, at this point in time I am truly happy. I have this soul deep happiness that only I can take away.
Now, I'm not going to lie to you. Getting to this wonderful place was h*ll. The world is a sh*tty place, it is one f*cked up h*ll-hole. But you, you are not broken, you are not worthless.
I have been where you are. About two years ago I had a mental breakdown. for months I was a zombie, I believed I was worthless. I am not. I am worth the world. You are worth the world. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. They are lying.
I personally want each and every person reading this that relates to it to reach within themselves and find something, anything. I want you to feel for a fire; some type of strong emotion like anger, hatred, love. I want you latch onto it like your favorite character would. I want you to use that fire. I want you to use it live. Hold onto that fire inside of you, because only you can put it out.
Each and every one of you is stronger than you think. Every time you say to yourself "I can't do this anymore" and you don't end your life you prove yourself wrong. Keep proving yourself wrong. You are worth it. You have an inner strength that only you can shake.
Even if you can't tap into that inner strength, tap into anger or hatred. Whatever caused you to hate yourself, hate it back. Let that anger and hated for something fuel your inner fire.
I was lucky because I had a wonderful support system and still have one. But I know not everyone is so lucky. I would like to offer myself as your shoulder, your strength. I want to pay forward a kindness the world never showed me. Tell the world to f*ck off and continue living.