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i need motivation to write chapter two for LTWYL so i can distract myself from feeling bleh. :(

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so, i  got an oral warning disciplinary notice from my boss this morning for the dumbest things ever.
          
          first; for failing to receive 20+ invoices (from the week i was gone for my wedding/honeymoon) in only a span of two days, when we kept getting products coming in throughout those two days.
          
          second; for watching a movie on my phone “during company time” which was actually during my lunch break, and he saw me eating in my office, clearly a sign that i’m on break.
          
          and third; for going to the taxidermy shop in the back constantly in 10-15 minute increments, which is a complete fucking lie because i never left my desk on monday and tuesday. and if i did, it was for a bathroom break or getting my lunch from the back.
          
          and if my work improvement doesn’t get better, it could lead to a final written warning or even termination.
          
          this is the shittiest day ever. i’m so heartbroken. i pour my heart and soul into this company and i just get this. i don’t know what to do. this hurts me in levels indescribable.

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i’m gonna vent real quick .. but, i could also use some advice.
          
          i know i shouldn’t let this bother me .. but ever since i left for over a week for our wedding/honeymoon vacation, my boss has been so grumpy with me and he’s been ignoring all of my posts. and the same with that girl that told us about her pregnancy not even a day after my miscarriage. they’re active on facebook cause i see the little green dot on their profiles and my manager ALWAYS reacts to that same girl’s posts (especially when it comes to her kids) when she always talked poorly about him but purposely ignores all of mine when i’ve always been there to help him. and it’s so sucky cause like??? wtf did i do to be treated like this???
          
          the girl’s always been jealous cause i got engaged within a year into my relationship and she’s been with her boyfriend/baby daddy for over five years and they live together and have two kids together and he hasn’t proposed .. even though they have their rings already bought? idk. she REFUSES to react to any of my posts while she’s on facebook but will take the time exit out of facebook, open messages, type my name, and send a private message. like?? why go the extra mile when you’re already on the app?? it’s so weird. and my manager, he’s been so pissy cause my husband and i both got the week off and during that week, he got his ass chewed my corporate but he’s being mean TOWARDS ME??? when i was gone for a whole week and had absolutely nothing to do with it??? it’s so exhausting dealing with such crappy people.
          
          and, she also gives such hypocritical energy. when i had my miscarriage, she told me that maybe it was a sign from god that maybe we should wait until marriage to start having kids. like GIRL????? you’re not married or even engaged and you’re having kids?? don’t give me that. it’s so hypocritical of her to say when she’s literally having kids before marriage.
          
          i’m hurt. i’m angry. i feel betrayed and sad. am i being an bad friend for feeling this way? :/