Shay and Matthew

          "After all that we've been through, I just can't stand losing you." - Losing You by You Me At Six

I love you both

I'm not going anywhere. I'm not leaving, even though it seems like I have. I know you're doubting me, and I'm not blaming you. I would too if I were you. But I'm always just a text away, I'm always here for you. I'll drop everything for you like I have done before and I'll do it again and again and again and again. I wouldn't blame you if you don't believe me, but I will prove it to you. I'm still Lizard, and I will always be Lizard. I love you

hey

I'm so so so sorry I couldn't text you today. My phone completely broke. I hope you're doing okay. I love you so much, you are so incredibly important to me. I'm trying to fix this as quick as possible. I'll talk to you soon. Don't give up. You're so strong, Shelly, I believe in you. x

Yeah, I think about the end just way too much

I miss my family. But not my household family. I miss my friend family. I miss talking all the time and laughing and smiling and being happy. I miss staying up waaaay too late and going to bed into early hours of the morning. I miss feeling safe. I miss feeling at home. But most of all, I miss her. The one who saves me.  Who does the things I want to amuse me. I miss not knowing what to talk about because we talked about everything already. I hate the struggle to find something to talk about because we don't know where to start and if we have enough time. I miss not having to fake a smile all the time 

I love you toooooooo. Thanks. I survived. @itsacowluke02

I love you to death too tho. Thank you

@itsacowluke02 just because he's evil, doesn't mean you have to call me evil too